why like this?

i will also feel hurt and unhappy

ok?

=((((((((((((

when i needed you where were you?

i love my outing with you today =D

today can be counted as my delightful-est happiest outing day recently

i dont know is it the people i went out with or the places we went that makes me feel so excited and happy,but the main point is,I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY!!!!

Xin,Ivy and me went on a "KL one day jalan jalan trip" today!our very first mission of getting out today is to this place Korean Plaza @ Menara Hup Seng,to join the saranghaeyeo korea club. and the next mission is to try out the Typica Cafe@ Shaw Parade that i saw so many recommendations from friends.

the great news is!we achieved both!hehe

actually none of us went to these places before.so i tried google map it to find out it's location,but still,i dont have any idea.luckily we got ivy's dad sending us to menara hup seng! finally i realized that MAPS are useful, because thanks to the map(that i grab last time in MAAU event), we didnt get lost!glad that we successfully get to that 2 places, without endangering ourselves!

Menara Hup Seng is a very nice place,dont know why but i just like to be there! we're always surrounded by the OLs and OBs,make us looks high-class-er too,LOL.

oh ya,did you know that CIMB bank is partnering with Old Town White Coffee(for certain branches).we came into this shop,which it is a old town coffee shop,but the design was very CIMB,all red stuffs,red sofas, CIMB banking stuffs on the walls and windows.haha,even their menu!! they're advertising for CIMB too,something like "join us,as easy as your meal from old town",ROFL.

however,we had a sweet time in that place

move on to shaw parade.okay,as far as i know,Typica cafe(our 2nd mission) is located there.i only know this builiding named Shaw Parade,never been there.so as soon as we get off from taxi,we walked into this builiding,and was really amazed to it's SIZE! i think the whole building only equals to a MV north court.but since it's that small,we can find that shop easily,i thought. so just scan through ground floor and step to escalator to frist floor.scanned again and move to second floor.because it's that small,we dont even have to spend 10 seconds to scan,and till we reached the third floor,xin and ivy was like "do you think this building got other parts? takkan small like that?" then we went down to the main entrance again and try walking from the outside,see if we get to see other entrance that maybe connects us to the cafe we're searching. we saw a security guard outside,he was like too free over there and his eye keep telling us that "anything you want me to help?",so we asked for his help.

"how to go Typica Cafe?"

"erm...typica?" he doesnt understand me?

"where is GL-08" ask him the location instead

"gl-08?"

"ya,the back one eu yan sang is GL01,but where is GL08? we cant find"

"..." he needs sometime to get what i say

"oh!"

"ya,you know where is it?"

"you walk from here,turn left,then walk again turn left again"

"ok,sounds easy,thanks ajushi!"

after turning left twice,we still didnt saw any shops,only those air filter/aircond machine.oh oh~wrong way? then..!!it was hidden under the shades and trees,after entering the shop only we realized it was actually right behind the exit door when we walked in shaw parade.omg,how was anybody going to find it,it was so hidden and unnoticeable...

ok,dont talk about it's location.i like this shop,the owner was nice and sweet. the atmosphere there was quite okay for me,especially when it rains( it rained this afternoon when we're there),the coffees are fantastic! they have many many imported coffee beans and brewed with special ways, taste really nice! and the cakes, expensive but delicious weyyy!!!

oh,i'm so in love with today's brilliant outing!

thanks for the two sweetie who went out with me, so in a good mood till i forgotten about exams, at least for that noon =]

people!i'm totally in love with korea now,please let me be a true korean someday!wahaha!

dozensss of photos were taken but i'm lazy to post it here,so why dont you click into my facebook and see? since you got my account =P

hatred

hate it

hate that i didnt take care of my friend

hate that i always make them feel left out

hate that i made myself "transparent-going" in everyone's life

hate that i cant control my emotion

hate that i dont know how but only cry to let go of it

hate that i must do something that i've totally lost interest

hate that i hate her to say that but i never dare to stop her

hate that i dont have the guts to start a fight

hate that i found myself is so peace-loving

hate that i dont know how to throw all this bad emotion into rubbish bin

hate that i'm still so stupid

hate that i'm still so naive

hate myself but dont know how to kill it

hate everything

so what is the big deal about 21?

i always imagine how wonderful my 21st birthday will be?

as i always see how my friends around me celebrate 21st,it somehow makes me looking forward to it.

a pool party?many many wishes and presents all from my friends?golden KEY necklace?ice cream cakes?having an open house party?

not at all

it ended.

JUST LIKE THAT.

well,still thanks for people that sincerely wished me from so far away.and thanks for the cake,coursemates.

21st is not a big deal

i will have 30th,50th,80th to go.wait then,i will make myself memorable and brilliant for that.

If You Want A Lover

today is a special day,and i always wanted a lover to be with me for this special day

recently addicted to this song "If You Want A Lover" by G.Na and Rain

i love it so much and i wanted to recommend it to you people too!

try to listen to it,and look in the lyrics,it's really sweet!

if you dont have a lover yet, now start planing things you would want to do with your lover

if you already have it,hehe,grab him/her to do all the things stated inside :)

everyday is your valentine

today is a lovely day,i love you =]

There are so many things I’ve wanted to do once I had a boyfriend, I’ve always dreamed
First, kissing on the street, second, you see, is a train to ChoonChun at dawn
Third, going on a picnic, fourth, getting a piggyback ride, fifth, couple rings are standard
boo boo boo it would be really sweet

Why does my heart beat thump thump simply at the thought
I’m going to do each of things daily daily daily with you
My day is enjoyable because I have you, now that the two of us are together
My precious you, baby baby baby baby boo~

There are so many things I’ve also wanted to do once I had a girlfriend, I’ve always been envious
Sixth, late night movie, seventh, amusement park too, eighth, surprise event too
boo boo boo, I would be really happy

Why does my heart beat thump thump simply at the thought
I’m going to do each of things daily daily daily with you
My day is enjoyable because I have you, now that the two of us are together
My precious you, baby baby baby baby boo~

My once lonely birthdays, boring weekends
I now await labeled days

I like that it’s the two of us, I like that we’re together
Wherever I am, whatever I’m doing with you

The one thing I’ve wanted to do most most most out of those things

“I love you,” saying those words those words those words just once
“I love you,” hearing those words those words those words just once
Thank you so much for coming to me, you being by my side
My love, baby baby baby baby boo~
baby baby baby baby boo~

你明白《西游记》带出的意义吗？

“小时候读《西游记》，只是为了看孙悟空大妖精。后来才明白它是成人寓言：生命是漫长艰辛的修行，但即便如唐僧般软弱，也可以到达终点。”

昨天晚上终于看完了《裸婚》，这本书是半年前我“单独上海之旅”的战利品。

上面那句话，出自作者的后记。

即便如唐僧般软弱，也可以到达终点。我一直在思考：为什么呢？

这是因为他身旁有三个为他铲除妖魔鬼怪的徒弟护航吧。

也许是最近身边发生了一些事，看到作者的后记，我也有了一些想法。

唐三藏，他软弱，懵懂，容易相信别人，没有戒心，太善良，遇到困难只会“阿弥陀佛”“菩萨保佑”。可老天却将大任于斯，让他成就西天取经的功名，照读者这样看，他不过是带着一群“保镖”保护他到西天取经罢了？根本没有功劳或苦劳可言。

有些人会说，他命生的好，生来带有贵人相扶；简单来说，是个很幸运的人。

孙悟空，他武功高强，他疑心重，脾气暴躁，敏感，不轻易屈服，是个解决问题的高手，所有人都怕它，连玉皇大帝都敬畏他三分。可他偏偏要屈膝于一个手无寸铁之力的和尚，听他差遣，还要叫他一声“师傅”。

“俺老孙连玉皇大帝他老爷都不怕，看到我还要让座给我，凭什么你个和尚就要我拜你为师？凭什么？俺不服！俺不甘心！”

这种人，我们就说他遇到了克星，什么人给他治不好，偏偏一个实力比他差的人制服他，克住他了。他是遇人不淑咯！

猪八戒，这个人好色好吃好睡好玩，一无是处，遇到困难第一个掉头逃跑，自恋，懒惰，不会解决问题却爱制造问题。真不明白唐三藏干嘛要带这种人去西天取经？呆头呆脑，累人累己。可像他这个没什么用的人，最后还不是一样取得经，得道了吗？

沙悟净，还真是一个平凡低调的家伙。为人又单纯，而且任劳任怨，难怪老是被他猪师兄呼来唤去。话最少，活儿干的最多，可是他却从不抱怨一句，总是安守本分。

傻傻的他一定认为：能为大伙儿扛行李，能替大伙儿分担工作，我就心满意足了。

这种人哪会有出头天啊？干了一辈子的苦活儿，还不是跟在猴儿哥，二师兄后面的小跟班一个。

你看到我想说什么吗？

有些人生来就是唐三藏。纵使他本身没有很多才华，但他却是个领导的人才。西天取经，这条漫长路上，他有唐朝皇帝的支持，菩萨做他后盾，身旁有得力助手孙悟空帮忙。为什么他有那么多人扶持？也许就是他为人诚恳，善良；也许是因为他从来与世无争，一心一意为了让更多人得道；也许是他的真心打动所有人。

孙悟空，没错他是个非常厉害的人，有了他的帮助肯定事半功倍。但是他冥顽不灵，只有唐僧才治得了他。开始的时候他看任何人都不顺眼，但慢慢的，他对唐三藏从憎恨变成尊敬，对猪八戒从厌烦变成喜欢，对沙僧从看不起变成欣赏。如果他没给自己这个机会和他人相处，他怎么发现别人的好，怎么懂得体谅，怎么会学习别人的优点？

猪八戒，老是被他大师兄欺负嫌弃，但他也不会为此而杀人放火。他胜在是个健忘的人，不会把不开心的事记在心里，跟他不会有隔夜仇。傻乎乎的猪，就是凭着傻乎乎的个性，跟大家傻乎乎的取经去。在你眼里看来很不可思议，没有实力的人怎么会成功？这或许就是傻人有傻福吧？傻子不是不聪明，是他知道什么时候应该聪明什么时候应该装傻。反正天塌下来有他猴儿哥撑着，他还逞什么强。所以偶尔傻一回不足为过！

沙悟净，平凡得没人记得他到底在西天取经的路上干过什么大事？但是平凡的人，自有平凡的方法成功。他不与大师兄争出风头，不求功名，不与二师兄争风吃醋，不求利禄。他很低调的一路上为大家付出，只是大家没察觉。他真正是一分耕耘，一分收获。所以他得到的跟他付出的成正比。如果你连他因为守本分而成功都看不顺眼，那你实在是小心眼了点~

成功不是必然的。

成功，靠的不仅是你的才能，更多时候看的是你的心。

我一直相信，只要你真心付出，你不一定会有回报，但你一定会成功！

所以，当你不成功的时候，问问你自己，你拿出真心了吗？

*篇章纯属个人看法，无诽谤诋毁之意。若有得罪请包涵。

亚运会倒数-心情篇

不知道是不是因为他们的关系

我开始关心起运动新闻来了

亚运会眼看就要到了，我也没少紧张

田径赛的赛期是11月21日到27日，短短6天却是影响运动员一生的日子

我知道，他们最近都很忙

每天在台北台中高雄来回奔跑，希望在这剩下的两个星期里可以恶补自己的不足

花上所有一切，只为一面金牌。

选手当中有些已为人父，却要每天和妻儿过着思念不能相见，相见不能长远的日子。

有些年纪很轻的选手早前受伤了，却一定要带着这受伤的身子死撑，继续磨练，直到极限。如果中途就放弃，那这些年来的努力一切血本无归。所以宁愿战死沙场，至少为自己为国家争光。至少得个“名流千古”

有时忍不住为他们心疼了。

台湾著名体育新闻台“纬莱新闻”，曾经说：

在这100米跑道，枪声一响，从一数到十，我们眼里的十秒，却是运动员付出一生的地方。

十年来的努力，就在这一到十里。

对啊，说得一点都没错！

谁能在这一到十比别人快一点点踩到终点线，就是赢家。即使你只差0.01秒，那个金牌就跟你说bye bye。

我能想象这次他们出赛是带着多大压力的，表面上大家还是疯疯癫癫，其实心里都没有一天踏实过。

我真的希望他们这次在亚运可以创下佳绩！因为我还是比较喜欢看他们上台领奖那种开心的表情！

中华台北田径队，你们要加油啊！

亚运会田径赛视频

马来西亚田径公开赛

这几天忙的就是“马来西亚田径公开赛”

我被选为中华台北的代理（Liaison Officer），这次台湾一共派出13位田径选手，4位教练和2个领队来马。

一开始接下这份工作的时候蛮紧张的，担心表现不好，可是大家对我的表现都很满意，包括主办当局和台湾的教练们。哈哈！有趣的是，我在很多时候都充当他们的翻译员，这头说英文，那头说中文，越说越PRO，我的阿head对我很满意，说下次一定要我带台湾队！

其实我们相处的时间也就是那短短的4天3夜，老实说，我跟很多台湾选手还不是很熟咯，可能太大班人了，要每个都混熟有点难。所以我反而很羡慕我的朋友带的香港队，他们才5个人，而且年龄相近，够38，感情自然比我好。可是那些香港队的人也很喜欢我（可能是第一天晚上跟他们出去吃东西吧），最后一天还送我他们的纪念徽章！嘻嘻

我好后悔没有带他们去游山玩水，没机会联络感情。都怪那个主办单位，行程一直有变动，感觉一直要他们迁就我们，明明我已经很professional，但是因为他们那种很不systematic的管理，搞到我很像不professional这样，虽然我的台湾教练领队每次都说没关系，OK，可是我就是觉得很对不起他们。

嗯，撇开对管理层的不满，我还是很开心的。台湾的人真的很热情！有礼貌，又友善！他们的领队，五十多岁了，在机场第一次见到我的时候就给我鞠躬！天啊，我是后辈耶！你说是不是很有礼貌。第二天晚上又带我到酒楼请我吃晚餐，本来身为东家的我应该请客，怎料却是他们请我吃饭；第三天下午教练团还请我吃午饭，每一餐都是上百块的咧～回去的时候还给我送了一个小礼，礼虽小，情意却重啊！真的很感谢他们！

赫赫，你们知道吗，我的台湾选手个个都是国家级的选手咧！其实他们教练曾经提过，可是我以为只是普通的国手。昨天我上网看他们的资料，才发现原来他们真的是很厉害很厉害的国手，在台湾的知名度差不多像是我们拿督李忠伟那种知名度。哎哟，衰在我没早点知道，要不然先来个单人合照嘛～希望明年他们还再来马来西亚，那我就有机会再见他们！嘿嘿！

昨天从机场回来的时候，有一度感觉空虚，感觉我应该还有一些事情要做，但是没做到。

这四天的日子就像梦，结束了，梦醒了，我又必须回到现实生活，面对那些不想看到的事。

就像崔领队说的：我们能够认识是种缘份。缘就是圆。这个圆是五百年才修来的福分。希望我们的圆还在，期待下次的见面！

台湾队加油！在亚运会再创佳绩吧！

这是跟香港队的合照！他们都是很可爱的人，左起：team manager李Sir，“瘀痕”，karlam，Miki(HK L.O)，阿赵，我，惠敏（泰国L.O），阿成

登登登登～我和我的一级棒台湾队（缺领队和副领队）

放生

很烦

一大堆功课等着我做，还要从我非常有限的时间里抽出时间来解决那些无聊的问题

很想不要去管那些无聊的事，但这是工作范围，被逼要去插手管

很想无故ponteng，但这违背工作范围，不能允许

那些无聊的额外活动很想统统不去，但顶着这个头衔，一定要出席

不想跟去他们所谓的联谊，喝茶，但为了大局，不能不去

他们抱怨工作的时候，我也好想跟着一起抱怨，一起发脾气，可是因为身份，不但不能，还要说好话，觉得自己实在是假到。。

很多时候很想说不要！不能！不喜欢！因为身份，说不出口

好想跟朋友聚餐喝茶，但每天都有开不完的会议和忙不完的事情，甚至连讲电话的时间都没有

有时真的真的很想把这工作丢掉

尤其是对着他，一股忧郁涌上心头

更多的是反感和压力

我想结束这一切了

我想把自己放生

JYJ! here they come!

baby!!you're so not gonna believe this

JYJ is coming to malaysia on the 16th october!!!

it is officially proven now!

btw,fyi

JYJ is the 3 handsome guy from TVXQ/ DongBang ShinKi. they were named over their initials: Junsu, Yuchun and Jaejoong. therefore JYJ.

the best news is i get to grab one of the fan meeting tickets!!! it cost me rm300 for the rock zone!

my purse is bleeding like hell,but, i dont care! XP

if only my Yunho is with them,i would go snatch for the VVIP ticket which cost rm800(omg! >.<)

i'm 2 years been dead in the cassiopeia life, cos they never came to malaysia since 2008

though this time only the 3 of them came, i believe they will bring the best no matter to the JYJ fans or the cassiopeias!

they are back!!!welcoming the RED SEA!!

speak no words.think no thoughts

i dont like to read or guess people's mind

so dont make me guess yours,just tell me what you want.

maybe i'm thinking too much

thought that something will be something

so, before he declares

i wont think any further

more hope only bring more disappointment

agree with me? =)

love has come

once before,i wait and waited for it to come

but it never came to me

and now that i could feel that

love has come...

somebd teach me .i'm in fear.

race

i race with time

and i'm always a loser chasing after him

sigh.

i want to get rid of all these irritating stuffs

郁闷

现在心情极度郁闷！！

我觉得自己快要被那座叫压力的山压死了

从前的开心日子不知道哪里去了，现在只觉得是为了责任而完成

我很郁闷很烦恼甚至反感

我很不想要变成一个只会逃避问题的人，可是我做不到

什么时候开始，我从一个人家说的“很强硬的女生”变得很脆弱，不堪一击

每次当你提起这话题时，我都不想回答

不是因为我无言以对，是我不想在你面前流眼泪

我经不起你那种关心的眼神

我只能望着你笑着说“我没事”

it's the raya break

raya break is coming up,are you guys ready for the two-weeks break?

going anywhere with your special ones? or you plan to spend time all by yourselves?

before this i planned to spend my holidays with my family,for not going back home for quite some time.maybe ask them to go on a trip with me, go for movies and popcorns, perhaps a karaoke session!

but...aiks! my break was ruined =/

i have to finish stacks of assignments and presentations before school starts. tests, presentations after presentations after raya holidays,OMG.2 weeks time is definitely not enough for me

well, i will have 2 camps held in Bukit Mertajam and Skudai, soon during my break.yea,it's the CAMP again. sometimes me myself feel stressed about organizing camps, it's not like the camps that we did during our secondary, somehow i have a kinda responsible to make it a perfect and wonderful one. hope everything went well during our camp =)

oh yea,i went to Melacca last week,with my coursemates. it supposed to be a course trip,but end up only 6 of us went,haha. it was fun though! i could say that Melacca was really a nice place to travel! things are cheaper there, people there are friendly enough, and i LOVE the night scenery along the Sungai Melacca! because of that,i fell in love with Melacca, a romantic city i called =)

dont miss out to watch the night scenery if you got the chance to go there!

this is one of my favourite photo from Melacca trip, taken at the St Paul Church by a sweet angmoh lady.you know she even climbed on steep ground just to take a beautiful photo for us,how nice is she!

it's all for now,enjoy your holidays no matter where you are!

annyeong~

小小草

很想说什么

但说不出口。。。

有时候，宁愿自己是个不知名的小人物

宁愿自己平凡

宁愿在自己的世界里沉默下去

花朵，永远都那么受人瞩目

而他，只是花朵身边的一棵小草

小草笑容灿烂，花儿略显娇柔

小草慵慵懒懒，花儿更显活泼

小草平平凡凡，花儿艳丽四射

别人只看得见花的美丽

但人们不知道的是，是小草衬托了花儿的美

花朵沾沾自喜

小草暗自垂泪

谁叫我是一棵小小草？

亲爱的，我想你们！

啊，最近我的亲爱的他们过的好像不是很好，我好希望可以在你们身边给你们鼓励，陪你们大喊！

本来以为我会有时间找你们聊天的，但是现在我自己也忙到傻了。知道吗，从这个学期开学到现在，没有一天晚上我是可以在房间静静的发呆。基本上每天10点后才回到房间，又要洗衣服，然后睁着一半的眼睛作assignment。

累，心理很累。

你们的 fengfeng 开始撑不下去了。=/

啊，对了！我们大学来了一大班韩国学生哦！^^

我昨天跟他们出去，到瓜拉雪兰莪看萤火虫！

天啊，你们可以想象一下我昨天是多么多么多么开心！终于实现了我的愿望！

hohoho！而且啊，明天开始，我有一个专属老师教我韩语哦！我真的是“百忙之中”抽空出来学的，但为了完成我的韩国梦，死也要死过去！哈哈哈！！

上了课后在跟你们说我的韩国课故事吧！

我“主修”的活动-全中华生活营，下个星期开跑了！

说真的我很紧张，毕竟现在的身份不同了，所以我常常是压力多过享受。

希望我们会成功啦！

喂！你们！你们！你们！我想念你们的声音和sms！

不管什么事，记得要update我哈！

夜

我看起来很得空？很悠闲？

如果是这样就好！

把自己搞得像超人酱，自己有时也不明白到底我要的“充实的大学生活”是不是就是这样。

有时候真的很累，搞不清楚是什么让我这样累。

不久前读到一篇文章说“某些人，就是会作贱自己，为了迎合别人，为了让大家喜欢”。感觉文章里写的那个人就是我。我每天忙来忙去，应该就是在忙着做别人喜欢的我。

自己也觉得很假，假到近乎真情，每天每天作着不是我的我，逼真到我都觉得那是真正的我

我班上有个很有智慧的同学说过 “总要为自己的人生创造一些刺激，有时候要做一些疯狂的事。可是千万不可以无时无刻都那么刺激，那么HIGH。偶尔制造的高潮会为你的人生带来一些快乐，可是当这些快乐一直被机械化的重复又重复，它就不是快乐了。” 他说“如果你一整天都很兴奋很HIGH很开心，这样一整天下来，到晚上冷静下来的时候你会感觉特别空虚，到底今天一整天我在HIGH什么？开心什么？” 他说那些可以制造出来的开心反而令你更不开心。

我也想做个每天摆臭脸，或者严肃的人，虽然会被排挤，但至少不必整天这样做贱自己。

可是怎么办？每次，看到闷闷不乐的朋友，我就会说些无厘头的笑话逗他笑，甚至自嘲，扮傻。

结果我就这样，变成很好欺负的人。

大家都认为我没有脾气，开玩笑也从来不客气，甚至要shoot我也不用考虑我的心情，因为他们知道我从来不会为这些事发脾气。

不知道，不知道！我也不想知道，烦死了！

publicity in UM

全中华(QZH) is recruiting new juniors and members into our big family,so we went for publicity in many faculties and colleges(hostels)

today is me, Lian and Sheauwei's turn to duty,we went to 1st 2nd 6th college.

that was the first time since i entered UM,going to 1st and 6th college,funny isnt it?the funnier thing is we even asked a 1st year student how to go 6th college,and they feel unbelievable when we told them we're already 2nd year,they're like "i thought you're already 2nd year? but how come you dont know where's 6th college?" speechless.

but i promise i gotta walk more to these colleges cause you know what,all the future professionals are living there! the doctors the lawyers and engineers. how envious I am to be like the girls inside,unlike in my case,i'm only staying with accountants and business people,how boring...(wow,i'm staring to blame my life,and it's only the 2nd week of my 2nd year)

i suddenly felt so in love about doing publicity(usually i hate this) cause the juniors are cute!! they are so mannered and patiently listening to our long introduction. and i love chatting with them,they laughed and smiled over my stupid jokes and opinions about UM,i had this great sense of accomplishment after chatting with them. because everyone enjoyed when i was promoting this supposingly-boring QZH to them,haha

and seriously i found that more and more lenglui lengzai entered UM,wow~time to catch some new dish *evil grins*

i get to met 2 of my CHS juniors today!!!! Zi Wei and Jun Fai! so lucky of me =)

i could totally understand the feeling when they met me,just like you found an ice cream in the desert, i'm the ice cream anyways! i'm so excited knowing them and meting them inside UM campus, you know i always envy my friends over UMS or UUM,because they've got bunch of CHS seniors who took care them when they're new to uni. i always wanted a senior like that,i mean if you come from the same school,you'll somehow feel better seeing him or talking to him,right?

so,i'm going to be that kind of senior to the 5 pity chsians in UM,hehe..and btw,really love talking with chsian,they are smart yet 38 enough,perhaps we owned the CHS blood,so we feel so home =)

and i learned something today: smile and mood are affective to others.so always keep your mood lighten up and you'll see a beautiful world.

heyyy,i'm back!

it's almost one month i didnt update my blog

after reading eu's blog,i feel like i should write something too

this was the best semester break i had,i went to China twice,to Beijing and Shanghai.

the first one is to attend a summer programme offered by the China HanBan (chinese education ministry),we stayed for 21 days and traveled to many many beautiful places.undeniably,i love Beijing, but not counting in the china people.THEY ARE WAY TOO RUDE!

and the following trip is all by my own,i went Shanghai, initially, to visit the World EXPO, but ended i spent more time to meet my friends and walked around with them.it's a great experience to EXPO,but believe me it wasnt THAT great like everyone said.one day is enough.

when i met all of my ex-coursemates in SJTU,i felt so sad,if it wasnt of the offer letter from UM,i will be there right now, staying with them, studying with them, having fun with them, clubbing with them, working in EXPO with them....

i always miss the life with my form6 friends and with the SJTUians

ok,back to the lovely malaysia by sunday night,tired like hell.

today,is the second day of my 2nd year life,still the same,my life is busy and packed.i swear i'm not going to join THIS much activities next year,i should really reserve my precious university semester break for my dear friends,i know you guys are blaming me for not appearing in much of the gatherings,haha

i moved to a new room, in the same College(hostel),and i had new roommates,beautiful girls :)

it's a stressful thing to stay with coursemate, i start to feel it now.not that she's not good, but i will stress on myself alot to avoid doing things that will cause her anger or dissatisfaction towards me.i'm now learning "the way of living", it's tough.

woohoo people~it's the new semester!!!!cheer up cheer up!! i believe all of us will have a great great time enjoying/busying with our lifes of 2nd year.no matter what,just be you and have fun!

ps: welcome the new juniors to my faculty my college my university and, welcome to my life =)

21 days in china

hey my dear readers!!!!

i'm now in Beijing,China for a summer program which last for three weeks

and i will blog everything about my life and stories in Beijing in the new site

http://yfinchina.blogspot.com

feel free to drop by and say hi to me :)

i miss you peoples!

rainy day

1500 raining cats and dogs

1550 it turned into drizzling rain.i could hear the rain drops dropping on the land,on my roof,it was not a type of harsh sound,but a mild one.my living room was dark yet cool,the air i breathe in still sticks with the smell of the rain.i lied myself in the sofa,held my head in the pillow,started to enjoy all of the sudden joy.

ahh~do you ever realized that your mind went so clear when you're alone nesting in the sofa at a rainy day?

1556 i reached for my mobile phone and start sending messages to the ones which i care most. it was a so-not-like-me style forwarding messages.

1600 i get a reply from one of them "how come so random sending me such touching message".haha,i smiled,i just do it without thinking.

1602 another message "so,when are you leaving?" "i'm leaving on the 13th of june", i've been answering this for a thousands time.but this is the first time i felt it was so near.day after tomorrow,and i'm leaving.

1610 my mind stay at the Beijing issue. FLY. well,this will be the first time to fly. i always wanted a chance to fly away from our country, to travel and walk around the whole world. to me,staying in a country for a whole life? for 50 years? NEVER! and because that i love freedom so much,i always try to find ways to get out from here.

from the learning trip to Taiwan, to the student exchange programme to US, followed by the besties trip to Korea, and even my Shanghai dream, till the latest Thailand sudden-cancelled-backpack-trip.they all failed.

sometimes i really doubt that there is something called "fate" in the world we lived in.

this time i finally have it successfully done,but i'm worried,is this a good sign or a bad sign?

i hope it's a good one.i will leave safe and come back safe :)

peoplesss,i will miss you!
xoxo

Ａ９聚会

终于解脱了，终于可以甩掉平时的面具，做我喜欢的自己

今天是亭２１岁生日，因为他，我们大伙儿终于又聚在一起了！
卉亭生日快乐哦！！！
真的很喜欢跟你们在一起，就算是安静的吃饭，看电影，也甘愿
可是这帮人还是一样，爱在路上大喊大叫，见面一定要来个热情拥抱，打打闹闹骂来骂去的，还有不停的黄色笑话，无聊没氧的对话……可是怎么办，我就是喜欢这样的你们！

ＭＫ大老为了让我体验Ｆ１的感觉，竟然还飙车！实在是太好玩啦！！

今天

原来吵架也可以很爽
谢谢你，拼命的跟我吵
不知道你是故意气我还是怎样，但我心情真的好很多了

最近觉得自己很情绪化
一点小事就能让我气到发飚、让我失落跌到谷底、让我的眼泪失控
有想控制，但力不从心
我真的不懂自己到底是怎么了
每次在这种时候，都很想有个人在我旁边
听我抱怨也好，任我打骂也好，借我肩膀也好，给我一个鼓励的拥抱也好
但原本可以做到的那些人，已经离开了，新的嘛，没指望找到

怎么酱啊，来大学这么久，还是不会独立
好像很失败哦？

holding back the tears

this song can really give you a lot of power when you're sad or down,even you dont understand any of the lyrics,but they can touch your heart with their strong vocals
though it's a long ago song from DBSK,i just somehow love it so much,and it'll never get rid of my playlist :)
when you're happy,you might find this song abit sentimental
but believe me,when you really feel like crying and you cant stop the feeling of crying,listen to this,it works for me

"holding back doesnt mean letting go,you are just hiding it when you need to"

miss A9

i miss ur sweet smses
i miss ur tight HUGsss ur loud voice
i miss ur cute emo face *pinch*
i miss ur buddy talk ur broad smile =)
i miss ur unsavoury chats -.-
i miss ur lovely touch on my head
i miss ur lame jokes in ur comfortable car
i miss ur heineken stories

seriously miss u!!!!!!

holiday =))

i wish to go Phuket,Thailand for a backpack trip with WaiMun!
i wanna hang out with my super A9 CLUB peoples!!!! go genting go sing k go movies go shopping go eat and yamcha!!!!!!!!truly miss the FUN!
i want to watch MAYDAY's concert on 5th June!
i hope to go ShangHai for the World Expo 2010 and to find my darling =)
i want to join the inter uni camp on this coming sem break

i'm wanting so many activities on my coming holiday
but i only have limited $$$ and time
anybody wanna join me for any of the activities? :)

it's Golden Half !!!!

YES,this is a camera! a small tiny 35mm toy camera called the GOLDEN HALF
and it's mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i accidentally saw an article and found out this thing call LOMOGRAPHY
yea,just like you,i wonder what on earth is lomo,will it be anything better than DSLR?
well,then i check out on web,and found those lomo camera are really cute!!!!and some of the pictures are even better than DSLR ones,click here to see those fantastic pictures =]
they have some special features which normal digital camera doesnt have (i'm still working on it,cos i just get it 2 hours ago) hehe
btw,this is worthy cos it's way too cheap compared to the DSLR,well i guess i have to postpone my plan of buying a DSLR,since DSLR is a trend now,having one isnt that special anymore
i believe taking photos with my golden half will surely be more enjoyable and fun and "noticeable",hahaha

dont worry guys,will show you my Red Riding when i hang out with ya'll =)

我要一个肯定

只要是别人给我的东西，都要抱着感恩的心态，我是这样觉得的
就算是别人给予的一个勉强的微笑，但至少是他努力挤出来的，应该要感激才是啊！

现在我才知道，我最不喜欢的，就是当我很努力地付出，以为你一定会很感激我，你却完全不领情的样子
我才知道，我一直都是靠着别人给我的肯定，活着的。
所以我常常会做出一些很“伟大”的举动和决定，因为我希望别人开心，因为我想要别人喜欢我，因为我需要别人认同我，因为只有这样我才能继续活下去。

我会为了让你开心，做一些没有人会做的愚蠢的事，但你却把我当傻瓜
我会为了哄你，很用心的亲手做东西给你，你却无动于衷
为了让你看到我，我努力努力很努力的表现，你看到的始终是我旁边的人

被忽略的滋味，不是好受的
我要求不多，就只是要一个肯定
“谢谢你！”
有那么难吗？

我遇上了100%的女生

世界上怎么有那么perfect的人啊？
人长得美，头脑好，有才华
又是个充满爱心的护士，而且很孝顺
活泼开朗，亲切随和
天啊，真的好喜欢这个女生啊！
嘻嘻~这就是所谓的爱屋及乌吗？

it's about love in universities

we discussed the LOVE topic in our class just now
my lecturer said something that makes me really upset
as all of us know University is the best place where u can experience LOVE
she encouraged us to find our true love in uni, if not at least experience it
she said this is the stage of life you must went through and this is the place where u shouldn't be hiding your feelings, she wants us to be brave and seek our Mr/Ms Right. she said never feel embarrassed about loving people, once you've found the right person, dont be shy dont let go and fight for love (i was like omg,she's cool)
this is the part which makes me upset, she said, if till the day you graduate u're still a piece of white paper, u're counted fail, failing the biggest subject in life. even you graduate with honors, but actually u're still not graduated from life

and we,the single ones were like "huh?Mdm Wong, do u have to mean it that way? is it that serious about being single?"
and my lecturer was like "hahaha" and ended this topic -.-
*ouch*
what a suffering lesson for me, it's pathetic cos i'm not in love and i never had one
so should i really start to search for a bf, in this hurry? ..i wonder


HEY hey people out thr,which are still SA, heard what my lecturer said? hurry up go find your love!now! before it's too late =P

a visit to RTM

we went to RTM yesterday for a crosstalk performance. our teacher only chose 2 teams to perform,and we're one of them =)) *proud proud*
but i wasnt satisfied with my performance yesterday,could say it's terrible.
but somehow it's a great experience to have visit to RTM!! and i managed to see the DJs on air
see,this is the ON AIR sign in each n every radio station

this is the place where u can see DJ LIVE here~!!!!!
there are around 17 fm in RTM,so we visited almost 17 radio stations in a day!hehe

tada~ AIFM
one of our crosstalk teacher - DJ Jay Ho Jia Wen is a DJ from AIFM
they're really amazing!!they only have 18 DJs in AIfm, and the DJs have to do everything,i mean EVERYTHING!! include writing advertisements scripts, find advertisements, marketing, do roadshows, organize meeting ups with AIfm listeners, etc...
now only i know a DJ's job isnt easy,especially when u're working for government
and i'm impressed by their efficiency :)

we also experienced how it feels like watching a SIARAN LANGSUNG show
it's a singing competition organized by RTM with chinese radio station AIfm & indian radio station MINALfm. so the show is named "Bintang AiMinal"
there was this very very very funny competitor that make all of us laugh off our chairs
he's a indian guy with this super rocker outfits, the way he sings and shake, looks like a uncle trying to be young,not being sarcastic but his whole image is just FUNNY and seriously very entertaining
felt so sorry that the whole bunch of us were damn noisy,non stop laughing and comment alot during the show ><

the half bunch of the monkeys
and the middle one does look like monkey head XP

*realizing i'm not updating the stories in my life, so here u go, a simple update from me( actually i'm living my everyday with lots of interesting stories)
tmr will be the exciting APK day, but i'm so sick,i'm afraid i couldnt handle well, please give me full support,i dont wanna ruin this project
our 9th College's prom night is coming this saturday!!! yeefeng's gonna have a big change, watch out,whee~~

love all my readers
XOXO

解脱 =)

也许他并不是我爱的人
真正的感情，应该是两个人的默契，将两颗心的距离缩短，慢慢靠近彼此。
从好朋友到情人，真正的感情是用不了多久的。

很多时候，我们不是喜欢某个人，而是某个形象，那个符合你心中100%的形象。

我们总说：“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。”
但是，怎样才算是很爱很爱？你却无法回答，因为你自己也不知道。

我们总以为，会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是后来，当我们猛然回首，我们才发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过，在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没有发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经等你很久了。

或许，我早该知道，我爱的不是他。
虽然他能令我怦然心跳
但真正的感情需要的不只是心跳吧？
爱情不是生命的一切，但没有爱情的生命就不完整
为了完整而去爱，是愚蠢的
突然得到解脱，是好事 =)

he likes my best friend

i like him
she likes him
he likes her

sad ending isnt it?

最近

原来已经一个月没update了
这个学期实在太忙，唯一的假期就是新年那个星期
可是有太多突发事件，还要忙着聚会，自己只剩两天赶assignments

新年回来就是我的“大型相声观摩赛”，简称大相。虽然没有得到冠军，可是评审老师有点名称赞我们哦！！说我们有创意！哈哈。很多人欣赏我演的女鬼色狼的角色。而且啊，我们和冠军队伍被邀请下个月到RTM表演哦，何等荣幸~！在这里特别感谢我的最佳拍档--古古！！

忙完大相就到全辨
话说，有只羊是沙巴大学的代表，来马大参赛，而我，就是他们的大专保姆，嘻嘻
在异乡遇见同乡是很开心的事，所以我知道那只羊看到我很兴奋咯，哈哈
他们刚比赛完，虽然输了，可是我真的觉得他们的表现很好。以为沙巴大学的水准应该只是“麻麻得”，可是他们比我想象的好很多。交了3个新朋友，很喜欢他们。他们3个辩论风格各有特色，有可爱的、有来势汹汹的、有斯文paiseh的。
为他们不能进入下一场比赛感到可惜。下次再加油吧！！

全辩之前，出席了“大摇”，也就是大型摇篮手歌曲发表会，很像看演唱会酱。
我很欣赏一个吉他手，他电了一头爆炸头，画上烟熏装，穿着窄裤，绑着金腰带，整个rocker打扮。在弹吉它的时候帅到爆！全场为他疯狂啊~！！他名叫jason ^^

前天淑莹飞去上海了，要不是当初接受UM的offer letter，我现在应该和他在上海逍遥快活了吧。还真有点对不起她。
希望他能把握这出国的机会，狠狠的给他玩一番，但也是要好好读书。两年后见咯！
身边的好朋友都不在我身边了，以后要找人发泄怎么办？

接下来会越来越忙
一大堆assignment 还有project要赶
最近，有一些人找我做下一届华文学会执委，不知道应该接受吗？
最后一项通告，假期我们要去 pulau phuket，有谁有兴趣？一起去玩吧！

teardrops on my guitar

i'm not sure why i'm here,but i just ought to be here
strange feelings,but not sure what was that
hatred? disappointment? tiredness?
maybe all of them

many things happened,i'm feeling so bad terribly down
but i couldnt find a person to talk to
now only i realized, all the friends i had beside me are just friends, pure friends
friends are to share happiness,not sorrow
while all my soul mates, which i used to rely on
they're too far away
as the saying goes "far water couldnt save near fire" (omg,direct translate,weird)

somebody said, "you thought you're bad,but actually you're not the worst"
yea,maybe i'm just like a crazy dog barking here and there shouting about my pain
but sometimes,a carzy dog like me, needs care,needs hugs,needs love,needs courage,needs support

but nobody knows,no one ever bothered

断章

你站在桥上看风景

看风景的人在楼上看你

明月装饰了你的窗子

你装饰了别人的梦

happy birthday

omg,i just found out that his birthday was same as my first crush

EXACTLY THE SAME !!

haha,it's so weird

yet i'm excited!!

is this a kinda fate or...? i wonder

hope i could give up my fear this time and wish him a

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =))

happy 2010

photos by sheng

HAPPY NEW YEAR
to all my beloved readers!!!
it's 2010 now
we still have 2 times countdown before the world ends XD
i'm excited!

2009 is over
forget about the sad past
keep only the sweet memories
have a nice start for 2010
and enjoy throughout this whole year
those i cared and loved, may god bless u

*i'm planning on something for this bright year, teehehe =) *