time of my life

说谎

2012-02-01T22:00:00.003+08:00

就算是好朋友，有时候也需要谎言的存在。

如果时间可以倒回

我宁愿当时没有向他说出那些话

宁愿编造善意的谎言来安抚他

宁愿他觉得我是个大坏蛋，也不想要让他伤心。

诚实，有可能是一种错误吗？

simply emo

2011-12-15T00:38:00.003+08:00

everything is not working right recently

i'm so stucked in the whole failing life

for 3 years, I've been rolling in and out, mixing around and I always thought i have more friends than i thought i had. and the truth is, yes i have but all of them are just friends, hardly find a friend who can really stand up for you when you needed them. this is really pathetic.

i'm seriously regreting, accepting the offer of leading this team, incomplete team. i just dont know why i could do such a decision, and end up regreting to the max! enemies knows you the best, maybe it's right. she did mentioned that i couldnt hold up to so much things, cos i may end up making myself another creature like before. and things proof that, what she say might be true.

assignments are stacking and pilling up with greater heights, and i just dont feel like completing it at all! what's wrong with me? and i felt so sorry when my teammates/coursemates are doing better than me, and they usually did it well, which makes me guilty cos i'm the one who pull them down. sighs, i'm not a good team player i thought. all my passions are gone, nothing can like push me up to reach those targets, i just feel so good slacking dead -.- i know the problem exist but i just cnt help it,why?

and things in relationship arent going smooth. to be accurate, it's a mess and miserable.owh why.

sometimes i would really prefer myself in another country, either studying or working. i mean i need a whole new life. i'm fed up of the boring life i had here,i need something to fresh me up! yes! fresh me up please!

arghhhhh!!! i thought writing might soothe my feelings and emos, but,it's the same half hours ago

i'm being too weird these days,i cant understand myself even.

雨过天晴

2011-11-05T10:34:00.002+08:00

我明了

既然知道继续下去也不会有结果，不如现在就结束

是的，我要退出，祝你和她幸福

往往朋友的一句话可以让我重新振作起来，谢谢你，朋友！

2011-10-25T20:24:00.003+08:00

我喜欢上他了。同时，被抛弃了。

我想要看到那个抛下假面具，在我面前大哭的男孩

我希望可以陪他吃晚餐，两人的晚餐

我想要在戏院，偷偷牵他的手，互相取暖

我还想要他一直打电话给我，就算是被他酸两句也无所谓

我想要成为他倾诉的对象，我想帮他分担

我想在他来接我的时候，帮他折袖子，然后说“有家的感觉吗？”

我想我想我想

我以为，爱情终于降临了

可是他竟然说“我还忘不了她，我还没准备好进入下一段感情”

我无言了。心情糟透了！

他却天真地还以为，我心情不好是另外一个男人造成的

从来没有过的低落！

我才发现，以前暗恋单恋什么的都是假的。

现在这个才是真正的“喜欢”

因为来得没有预告，在我懵懵然的情况下，心房已经悄悄打开了

不知怎么的，不知何时。

我就在被拒绝的那一刻发现

我喜欢上他了

*****

既然你要活在你和她的回忆里

我只能接受

我始终没办法让你有“再一次心动”的感觉

但谢谢你，让我心动了

让我明白什么是“喜欢”

i'm a freelancer!

2011-07-23T14:45:00.003+08:00

alright,end up i didnt get to arrange my exchange in time,so i postpone it next year. KOREA,wait for me ya ;D

so so so,i used the internet tools to search for jobs.this is really an E-century, i didnt know job searching is that easy till i used it!

i went to PWTC last week,working as an event crew! this is so cool,cause i get to wear FULL FORMAL to serve visitors!! and i looked like a professional OL with the black coat =)

met a bunch of great friends during work, nice and sweet people

less than one week after that event job, i got a call from friend,working as sales promoter,also for an event. honestly that time when i promised,i was attracted by the salary actually, and i thought it was quite easy, who knows.....

the first day i'm on duty,i work with two guys which i dont know at all. my supervisor gave me instant training, i have to memorize all the price, product functions, series number, value redeem points within 2 hour. okay,so i tried all my best to memorize it, though my memorizing skills sucks like shit, and already rotten since primary.

my supervisor is a guy who's really UN-KIND in treating part timers, when i first done something wrong, get the codes wrongly or stuffs, he'll straight away shoot me, without giving face. alright,i knew this kinda stuff would sure happen, so i just let him scold without saying anything back. but heyyy,he's giving me more and more stress and with him standing by my side,how am i supposed to promote things well? THAT IS NOT THE WAY TO IMPROVE YOUR PART TIMERS! i can be a better trainer really!

that's not the worst part!

i really dont prefer their kind of style/ attitude in promoting. my style of treating customer is : educate them how our product works, let them know and compare themselves, no pushing hard. and i always treat my customers with smiles, in a friendly way to promote. BUT! everytime when my customers, after a long time of speech, they end up saying "it's too expensive, we gotta think first" or "i'll come back to you" or "i'll see first", i will gratefully say THANK YOU with a big smile on my face~ turning back,my supervisor and the other "so-called top sales guy" will come over and TEACH me how to shoot back customers:

"auntie, if no money then dont spend your time here la"

"why need to see first? if you like just buy lahh!"

"said u forget to bring credit card,trying to bluff me ah? why dont you say you go school forget to bring your bags?"

my supervisor even said: 你不用怕customer的，敢敢shoot 他们！逼他们买！要不然你讲酱多有什么用？讲到半死都没有sales，这样叫你来做么？你要讲了他们会买，才可以的嘛，要不然就是浪费时间而已。那些不要买的，就不要讲料，我们还有很多customer要serve的。

after listening to his theories i was like OMG.

now i know what is call the true world! all of them are filled with wicked thoughts!

is not that i cant do sales, but i really cant do it that way! that's seriously not my style!

luckily my "friendly-style" of promoting saved me for the next two days!my sales are comparable with the "top sale guy" in their company, and one of my customer even said to me : oh,i like you,you're so friendly!

those words made my day and made everything i had before this worthy =))

and of course, i wont get beaten by these devils! i will proof that : MY WAY WORKS!

be like and angel and you'll be rewarded just like an angel =D

好久不见

2011-06-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

真的好久好久没有为我的部落格更新了。

因为一直都被活动捆着，虽然有时也有想BLOG的冲动，但最后还是肚子里的懒惰重作祟，在facebook草草update了status。反正现在大家都有面子书，而且可以随时随地更换最新状态，说实在的，比部落格容易多了。

可是，就像我朋友说的，把那些不可以公开的小秘密写进部落格比较好，至少有个发泄的管道，而且可以让身边的好友关注一下最新的“心理状态”，哈哈！

最近的情绪大概是：持续很高涨的度假心情！

为什么呢？因为本人从五月尾就放假啦~！！！到现在行程一直都是满满的！不停的南下北上，还出国到上海玩了一圈才回来！看似写意的生活，其实我的内心还是很空洞，一直在等什么机会让我出去闯一闯，等着完成我的韩国留学梦！等啊等，不知道我的梦什么时候才能实现。

第二个让我最近情绪高涨的，是因为我有喜欢的人啦！终于愿意喜欢上的人 :) 他是我大学的学长，一个外表帅帅，但又很可爱的一个人！

春风吻上她的脸

2011-01-17T00:25:00.003+08:00

最近好事特别多啊！！

不停的听到有人结婚，朋友的姐姐，台湾的朋友

啊！今天！竟然让我们发现了一个天大的秘密

他和她在一起了！！

J男和S女。

经过我们的高招的套话技术，他们招认了！

说真的，我们是超级惊讶的！因为怎么也想不到他们会在一起，可是我们大家都看好祝福他们 =]

希望你快乐！

哎~又凑成一对了

朋友问我是不是妒忌？

可能吧！

总觉得自己不会把握好来到身边的爱情。

我很向往爱情，却也很抗拒。

每当感应到一股热火往这边来，就会自动地把火熄灭，不自觉地。

我还是对自己没信心，为什么呢？

百感交集

2011-01-15T00:35:00.006+08:00

我会离家出走

今天出席黎紫书的分享会

她说，每个人一定，曾几何时，脑子里闪过的念头，要离家出走吧！

我点头。

可是，一定有放不下的人和事，让你牵挂。可能你放不下年迈的父母

我点头。

那，难道你要等到他们去了，才决定履行你曾经的梦想吗？那时的你不是风湿，就是高血压，怎么可能像年轻时，可以大步大步走天下？

其实没有你在身边他们也是可以过得很好的，就像我一样，以前我父母常常吵架闹不合，但在我离开的四年来，从没听他们有什么争执，甚至过的比以前更和气。父母在我在的时候，有了一种惯性依赖，可能他们完全没有那种后顾之忧，所以就任由自己这样。可是当我离开了，他们知道他们要对自己负责，自然就会找到生存下去的方法。我才发现，其实我也不是那么重要的。

所以，不要再拿谁做藉口，想离开的话就走吧！

我点头。我确实想离家出走，很久了。

原来这世界上，还有人是跟我志同道合的。她给了我一个理由，让我不能放弃这个梦想！

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我不想当“好”人

“你的人很好咧~ 你的性格真的很好，不追你的男生没有眼光！”

“我就是那个没有眼光的男生，哈哈”

你这是安慰吗？怎么让我觉得很无奈啊

你们越是那么说，就越让我觉得，我真的是那么差，差到...

除了“好”这个中性词，找不到别样可以形容我的话了

好是悲哀！

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小丑

我知道自己不是个多厉害的人，更不是一个称职的副主席，我知道其实自己没扮演好这个角色。

曾经，我真的很想放弃，然后说：我不干了！你们找别人吧！可是我知道这是懦夫所为，我不要做懦夫

曾经，我好想把所有的委屈难受都说出来，但，我找不到可以这样说话的人。我发现，我是很好的聆听者，但不是说话者。

我知道我一直拿不出那颗真心出来，而我也知道，一旦没有那颗心，什么事都做不下去。我真的很努力在检讨，认真想办法把心找回来。我不是没有努力，但我真的找不到。所以我就任由自己这样，假装自己是个有心人，装得维妙维俏，像个小丑。

我很内疚。因为我的缘故，搞得一大部分人做的不开心，我让一些人心里扎了刺，我让上头扛下我的责任，我让下属不信任，我让别人轻视了，我让小丑越来越不开心了。

为了补救这些过失，我眼睁睁看着小丑当成了永远的小丑。

我每次听到后辈们抱怨这抱怨那的时候，我也好想说：我和你们一样！我也很不爽！我也很懊恼！之类的话。可是我就是一个那么放不下的人，我不想让别人知道我有多软弱，我只想让大家看到最开心的我。于是最不开心的我，在没有人的时候才敢来探望我。

好的坏的，始终过去了。

小丑该下台了。

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红颜知己

我也曾经有个红颜知己，他是我活动中认识的一个男生

虽然，我们相识不是很久，也没有说过很多交心的话，但我总能理解他说的话，做的事。他也一样。

其实，我们没有真正谈心，也没有秘密可言。我们一直是在打打闹闹中，建立感情的。他和我，就像和别人一样；对我，也像对别人一样。可是我们总有一种说不出的默契，我可以在他眼神中读到一些他不说出口的话，他也总是可以很快察觉我的变化，很快理解我的心思。

于是我们俩，就像知己那样，走在一起。

我们心照不宣，一直维持这种纯纯知己关系，可是被有心人看在眼里，开始说起我们来了。

我们开始避讳对方，至少我是的。不再给他留言了。他也不再打电话来了。见到面，会故意很冷淡的打招呼。讯息变得很正式，像公文一样。好像回到刚认识的时候。不，是不认识的时候！

其实，我并不想这样的，可是我说不出口。他也好像很尊重我的决定似的，渐渐少来往。他曾经尝试回到像以前那样，跟我没大没小，跟我开玩笑。可是我都是很冷静的回应。虽然我也想恢复我们以前的关系，可是我讨厌成为别人的话柄，所以我只能继续冷漠。

直到后来，大家停口不再说我们俩的绯闻。我决定对他好一点，开始接触他。但他也像我之前对他那样，冷淡回应。虽然现在我们还是朋友，但已经不像以前那样了。

如果你知道我在说你，我想说，其实我真的很喜欢你，很珍惜你。你曾经让我觉得我终于找到同类了，那种温暖的感觉，而且目前为止，只有你一个。不知道还可以补救什么，但我真的很遗憾。希望，你也曾经认为我是你的红颜知己吧！那是我最希望听到的话。

2011-01-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

i'm very very unhappy

why must I be the only one who tolerate?

like if i dont say OK,the fault will be on me? like they will say because of you we dont get to continue our japanese class

in the end,i tolerate, with quiting form my kpop dance class,which i've worked so hard to get in!

i'm really unhappy about this

people who caused this trouble doesnt even seemed to feel sorry,or even say thank you when i agree with the changes

they're just taking it for granted!

it's just because of the bunch of them who wants to take japanese class which clashes with my chinese subjects.we have to postpone

i'm trying so hard to suggest other time so that it wont affect my dancing class

but that's useless,nothing changed!

i'm really not feeling good about this,very very unhappy =(((

2010-12-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

why like this?

i will also feel hurt and unhappy

ok?

=((((((((((((

when i needed you where were you?

i love my outing with you today =D

2010-12-01T23:02:00.004+08:00

today can be counted as my delightful-est happiest outing day recently

i dont know is it the people i went out with or the places we went that makes me feel so excited and happy,but the main point is,I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY!!!!

Xin,Ivy and me went on a "KL one day jalan jalan trip" today!our very first mission of getting out today is to this place Korean Plaza @ Menara Hup Seng,to join the saranghaeyeo korea club. and the next mission is to try out the Typica Cafe@ Shaw Parade that i saw so many recommendations from friends.

the great news is!we achieved both!hehe

actually none of us went to these places before.so i tried google map it to find out it's location,but still,i dont have any idea.luckily we got ivy's dad sending us to menara hup seng! finally i realized that MAPS are useful, because thanks to the map(that i grab last time in MAAU event), we didnt get lost!glad that we successfully get to that 2 places, without endangering ourselves!

Menara Hup Seng is a very nice place,dont know why but i just like to be there! we're always surrounded by the OLs and OBs,make us looks high-class-er too,LOL.

oh ya,did you know that CIMB bank is partnering with Old Town White Coffee(for certain branches).we came into this shop,which it is a old town coffee shop,but the design was very CIMB,all red stuffs,red sofas, CIMB banking stuffs on the walls and windows.haha,even their menu!! they're advertising for CIMB too,something like "join us,as easy as your meal from old town",ROFL.

however,we had a sweet time in that place

move on to shaw parade.okay,as far as i know,Typica cafe(our 2nd mission) is located there.i only know this builiding named Shaw Parade,never been there.so as soon as we get off from taxi,we walked into this builiding,and was really amazed to it's SIZE! i think the whole building only equals to a MV north court.but since it's that small,we can find that shop easily,i thought. so just scan through ground floor and step to escalator to frist floor.scanned again and move to second floor.because it's that small,we dont even have to spend 10 seconds to scan,and till we reached the third floor,xin and ivy was like "do you think this building got other parts? takkan small like that?" then we went down to the main entrance again and try walking from the outside,see if we get to see other entrance that maybe connects us to the cafe we're searching. we saw a security guard outside,he was like too free over there and his eye keep telling us that "anything you want me to help?",so we asked for his help.

"how to go Typica Cafe?"

"erm...typica?" he doesnt understand me?

"where is GL-08" ask him the location instead

"gl-08?"

"ya,the back one eu yan sang is GL01,but where is GL08? we cant find"

"..." he needs sometime to get what i say

"oh!"

"ya,you know where is it?"

"you walk from here,turn left,then walk again turn left again"

"ok,sounds easy,thanks ajushi!"

after turning left twice,we still didnt saw any shops,only those air filter/aircond machine.oh oh~wrong way? then..!!it was hidden under the shades and trees,after entering the shop only we realized it was actually right behind the exit door when we walked in shaw parade.omg,how was anybody going to find it,it was so hidden and unnoticeable...

ok,dont talk about it's location.i like this shop,the owner was nice and sweet. the atmosphere there was quite okay for me,especially when it rains( it rained this afternoon when we're there),the coffees are fantastic! they have many many imported coffee beans and brewed with special ways, taste really nice! and the cakes, expensive but delicious weyyy!!!

oh,i'm so in love with today's brilliant outing!

thanks for the two sweetie who went out with me, so in a good mood till i forgotten about exams, at least for that noon =]

people!i'm totally in love with korea now,please let me be a true korean someday!wahaha!

dozensss of photos were taken but i'm lazy to post it here,so why dont you click into my facebook and see? since you got my account =P

hatred

2010-11-28T00:05:00.004+08:00

hate it

hate that i didnt take care of my friend

hate that i always make them feel left out

hate that i made myself "transparent-going" in everyone's life

hate that i cant control my emotion

hate that i dont know how but only cry to let go of it

hate that i must do something that i've totally lost interest

hate that i hate her to say that but i never dare to stop her

hate that i dont have the guts to start a fight

hate that i found myself is so peace-loving

hate that i dont know how to throw all this bad emotion into rubbish bin

hate that i'm still so stupid

hate that i'm still so naive

hate myself but dont know how to kill it

hate everything

so what is the big deal about 21?

2010-11-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

i always imagine how wonderful my 21st birthday will be?

as i always see how my friends around me celebrate 21st,it somehow makes me looking forward to it.

a pool party?many many wishes and presents all from my friends?golden KEY necklace?ice cream cakes?having an open house party?

not at all

it ended.

JUST LIKE THAT.

well,still thanks for people that sincerely wished me from so far away.and thanks for the cake,coursemates.

21st is not a big deal

i will have 30th,50th,80th to go.wait then,i will make myself memorable and brilliant for that.

If You Want A Lover

2010-11-22T10:13:00.002+08:00

today is a special day,and i always wanted a lover to be with me for this special day

recently addicted to this song "If You Want A Lover" by G.Na and Rain

i love it so much and i wanted to recommend it to you people too!

try to listen to it,and look in the lyrics,it's really sweet!

if you dont have a lover yet, now start planing things you would want to do with your lover

if you already have it,hehe,grab him/her to do all the things stated inside :)

everyday is your valentine

today is a lovely day,i love you =]

There are so many things I’ve wanted to do once I had a boyfriend, I’ve always dreamed
First, kissing on the street, second, you see, is a train to ChoonChun at dawn
Third, going on a picnic, fourth, getting a piggyback ride, fifth, couple rings are standard
boo boo boo it would be really sweet

Why does my heart beat thump thump simply at the thought
I’m going to do each of things daily daily daily with you
My day is enjoyable because I have you, now that the two of us are together
My precious you, baby baby baby baby boo~

There are so many things I’ve also wanted to do once I had a girlfriend, I’ve always been envious
Sixth, late night movie, seventh, amusement park too, eighth, surprise event too
boo boo boo, I would be really happy

My once lonely birthdays, boring weekends
I now await labeled days

I like that it’s the two of us, I like that we’re together
Wherever I am, whatever I’m doing with you

The one thing I’ve wanted to do most most most out of those things

“I love you,” saying those words those words those words just once
“I love you,” hearing those words those words those words just once
Thank you so much for coming to me, you being by my side
My love, baby baby baby baby boo~
baby baby baby baby boo~

你明白《西游记》带出的意义吗？

2010-11-16T15:14:00.006+08:00

“小时候读《西游记》，只是为了看孙悟空大妖精。后来才明白它是成人寓言：生命是漫长艰辛的修行，但即便如唐僧般软弱，也可以到达终点。”

昨天晚上终于看完了《裸婚》，这本书是半年前我“单独上海之旅”的战利品。

上面那句话，出自作者的后记。

即便如唐僧般软弱，也可以到达终点。我一直在思考：为什么呢？

这是因为他身旁有三个为他铲除妖魔鬼怪的徒弟护航吧。

也许是最近身边发生了一些事，看到作者的后记，我也有了一些想法。

唐三藏，他软弱，懵懂，容易相信别人，没有戒心，太善良，遇到困难只会“阿弥陀佛”“菩萨保佑”。可老天却将大任于斯，让他成就西天取经的功名，照读者这样看，他不过是带着一群“保镖”保护他到西天取经罢了？根本没有功劳或苦劳可言。

有些人会说，他命生的好，生来带有贵人相扶；简单来说，是个很幸运的人。

孙悟空，他武功高强，他疑心重，脾气暴躁，敏感，不轻易屈服，是个解决问题的高手，所有人都怕它，连玉皇大帝都敬畏他三分。可他偏偏要屈膝于一个手无寸铁之力的和尚，听他差遣，还要叫他一声“师傅”。

“俺老孙连玉皇大帝他老爷都不怕，看到我还要让座给我，凭什么你个和尚就要我拜你为师？凭什么？俺不服！俺不甘心！”

这种人，我们就说他遇到了克星，什么人给他治不好，偏偏一个实力比他差的人制服他，克住他了。他是遇人不淑咯！

猪八戒，这个人好色好吃好睡好玩，一无是处，遇到困难第一个掉头逃跑，自恋，懒惰，不会解决问题却爱制造问题。真不明白唐三藏干嘛要带这种人去西天取经？呆头呆脑，累人累己。可像他这个没什么用的人，最后还不是一样取得经，得道了吗？

沙悟净，还真是一个平凡低调的家伙。为人又单纯，而且任劳任怨，难怪老是被他猪师兄呼来唤去。话最少，活儿干的最多，可是他却从不抱怨一句，总是安守本分。

傻傻的他一定认为：能为大伙儿扛行李，能替大伙儿分担工作，我就心满意足了。

这种人哪会有出头天啊？干了一辈子的苦活儿，还不是跟在猴儿哥，二师兄后面的小跟班一个。

你看到我想说什么吗？

有些人生来就是唐三藏。纵使他本身没有很多才华，但他却是个领导的人才。西天取经，这条漫长路上，他有唐朝皇帝的支持，菩萨做他后盾，身旁有得力助手孙悟空帮忙。为什么他有那么多人扶持？也许就是他为人诚恳，善良；也许是因为他从来与世无争，一心一意为了让更多人得道；也许是他的真心打动所有人。

孙悟空，没错他是个非常厉害的人，有了他的帮助肯定事半功倍。但是他冥顽不灵，只有唐僧才治得了他。开始的时候他看任何人都不顺眼，但慢慢的，他对唐三藏从憎恨变成尊敬，对猪八戒从厌烦变成喜欢，对沙僧从看不起变成欣赏。如果他没给自己这个机会和他人相处，他怎么发现别人的好，怎么懂得体谅，怎么会学习别人的优点？

猪八戒，老是被他大师兄欺负嫌弃，但他也不会为此而杀人放火。他胜在是个健忘的人，不会把不开心的事记在心里，跟他不会有隔夜仇。傻乎乎的猪，就是凭着傻乎乎的个性，跟大家傻乎乎的取经去。在你眼里看来很不可思议，没有实力的人怎么会成功？这或许就是傻人有傻福吧？傻子不是不聪明，是他知道什么时候应该聪明什么时候应该装傻。反正天塌下来有他猴儿哥撑着，他还逞什么强。所以偶尔傻一回不足为过！

沙悟净，平凡得没人记得他到底在西天取经的路上干过什么大事？但是平凡的人，自有平凡的方法成功。他不与大师兄争出风头，不求功名，不与二师兄争风吃醋，不求利禄。他很低调的一路上为大家付出，只是大家没察觉。他真正是一分耕耘，一分收获。所以他得到的跟他付出的成正比。如果你连他因为守本分而成功都看不顺眼，那你实在是小心眼了点~

成功不是必然的。

成功，靠的不仅是你的才能，更多时候看的是你的心。

我一直相信，只要你真心付出，你不一定会有回报，但你一定会成功！

所以，当你不成功的时候，问问你自己，你拿出真心了吗？

*篇章纯属个人看法，无诽谤诋毁之意。若有得罪请包涵。

亚运会倒数-心情篇

2010-11-10T15:27:00.007+08:00

不知道是不是因为他们的关系

我开始关心起运动新闻来了

亚运会眼看就要到了，我也没少紧张

田径赛的赛期是11月21日到27日，短短6天却是影响运动员一生的日子

我知道，他们最近都很忙

每天在台北台中高雄来回奔跑，希望在这剩下的两个星期里可以恶补自己的不足

花上所有一切，只为一面金牌。

选手当中有些已为人父，却要每天和妻儿过着思念不能相见，相见不能长远的日子。

有些年纪很轻的选手早前受伤了，却一定要带着这受伤的身子死撑，继续磨练，直到极限。如果中途就放弃，那这些年来的努力一切血本无归。所以宁愿战死沙场，至少为自己为国家争光。至少得个“名流千古”

有时忍不住为他们心疼了。

台湾著名体育新闻台“纬莱新闻”，曾经说：

在这100米跑道，枪声一响，从一数到十，我们眼里的十秒，却是运动员付出一生的地方。

十年来的努力，就在这一到十里。

对啊，说得一点都没错！

谁能在这一到十比别人快一点点踩到终点线，就是赢家。即使你只差0.01秒，那个金牌就跟你说bye bye。

我能想象这次他们出赛是带着多大压力的，表面上大家还是疯疯癫癫，其实心里都没有一天踏实过。

我真的希望他们这次在亚运可以创下佳绩！因为我还是比较喜欢看他们上台领奖那种开心的表情！

中华台北田径队，你们要加油啊！

亚运会田径赛视频

马来西亚田径公开赛

2010-11-02T15:03:00.006+08:00

这几天忙的就是“马来西亚田径公开赛”

我被选为中华台北的代理（Liaison Officer），这次台湾一共派出13位田径选手，4位教练和2个领队来马。

一开始接下这份工作的时候蛮紧张的，担心表现不好，可是大家对我的表现都很满意，包括主办当局和台湾的教练们。哈哈！有趣的是，我在很多时候都充当他们的翻译员，这头说英文，那头说中文，越说越PRO，我的阿head对我很满意，说下次一定要我带台湾队！

其实我们相处的时间也就是那短短的4天3夜，老实说，我跟很多台湾选手还不是很熟咯，可能太大班人了，要每个都混熟有点难。所以我反而很羡慕我的朋友带的香港队，他们才5个人，而且年龄相近，够38，感情自然比我好。可是那些香港队的人也很喜欢我（可能是第一天晚上跟他们出去吃东西吧），最后一天还送我他们的纪念徽章！嘻嘻

我好后悔没有带他们去游山玩水，没机会联络感情。都怪那个主办单位，行程一直有变动，感觉一直要他们迁就我们，明明我已经很professional，但是因为他们那种很不systematic的管理，搞到我很像不professional这样，虽然我的台湾教练领队每次都说没关系，OK，可是我就是觉得很对不起他们。

嗯，撇开对管理层的不满，我还是很开心的。台湾的人真的很热情！有礼貌，又友善！他们的领队，五十多岁了，在机场第一次见到我的时候就给我鞠躬！天啊，我是后辈耶！你说是不是很有礼貌。第二天晚上又带我到酒楼请我吃晚餐，本来身为东家的我应该请客，怎料却是他们请我吃饭；第三天下午教练团还请我吃午饭，每一餐都是上百块的咧～回去的时候还给我送了一个小礼，礼虽小，情意却重啊！真的很感谢他们！

赫赫，你们知道吗，我的台湾选手个个都是国家级的选手咧！其实他们教练曾经提过，可是我以为只是普通的国手。昨天我上网看他们的资料，才发现原来他们真的是很厉害很厉害的国手，在台湾的知名度差不多像是我们拿督李忠伟那种知名度。哎哟，衰在我没早点知道，要不然先来个单人合照嘛～希望明年他们还再来马来西亚，那我就有机会再见他们！嘿嘿！

昨天从机场回来的时候，有一度感觉空虚，感觉我应该还有一些事情要做，但是没做到。

这四天的日子就像梦，结束了，梦醒了，我又必须回到现实生活，面对那些不想看到的事。

就像崔领队说的：我们能够认识是种缘份。缘就是圆。这个圆是五百年才修来的福分。希望我们的圆还在，期待下次的见面！

台湾队加油！在亚运会再创佳绩吧！

这是跟香港队的合照！他们都是很可爱的人，左起：team manager李Sir，“瘀痕”，karlam，Miki(HK L.O)，阿赵，我，惠敏（泰国L.O），阿成

登登登登～我和我的一级棒台湾队（缺领队和副领队）

放生

2010-10-05T23:40:00.004+08:00

很烦

一大堆功课等着我做，还要从我非常有限的时间里抽出时间来解决那些无聊的问题

很想不要去管那些无聊的事，但这是工作范围，被逼要去插手管

很想无故ponteng，但这违背工作范围，不能允许

那些无聊的额外活动很想统统不去，但顶着这个头衔，一定要出席

不想跟去他们所谓的联谊，喝茶，但为了大局，不能不去

他们抱怨工作的时候，我也好想跟着一起抱怨，一起发脾气，可是因为身份，不但不能，还要说好话，觉得自己实在是假到。。

很多时候很想说不要！不能！不喜欢！因为身份，说不出口

好想跟朋友聚餐喝茶，但每天都有开不完的会议和忙不完的事情，甚至连讲电话的时间都没有

有时真的真的很想把这工作丢掉

尤其是对着他，一股忧郁涌上心头

更多的是反感和压力

我想结束这一切了

我想把自己放生

JYJ! here they come!

2010-10-04T17:18:00.005+08:00

baby!!you're so not gonna believe this

JYJ is coming to malaysia on the 16th october!!!

it is officially proven now!

btw,fyi

JYJ is the 3 handsome guy from TVXQ/ DongBang ShinKi. they were named over their initials: Junsu, Yuchun and Jaejoong. therefore JYJ.

the best news is i get to grab one of the fan meeting tickets!!! it cost me rm300 for the rock zone!

my purse is bleeding like hell,but, i dont care! XP

if only my Yunho is with them,i would go snatch for the VVIP ticket which cost rm800(omg! >.<)

i'm 2 years been dead in the cassiopeia life, cos they never came to malaysia since 2008

though this time only the 3 of them came, i believe they will bring the best no matter to the JYJ fans or the cassiopeias!

they are back!!!welcoming the RED SEA!!

speak no words.think no thoughts

2010-10-02T17:54:00.003+08:00

i dont like to read or guess people's mind

so dont make me guess yours,just tell me what you want.

maybe i'm thinking too much

thought that something will be something

so, before he declares

i wont think any further

more hope only bring more disappointment

agree with me? =)

love has come

2010-09-30T11:41:00.003+08:00

once before,i wait and waited for it to come

but it never came to me

and now that i could feel that

love has come...

somebd teach me .i'm in fear.

race

2010-09-15T00:53:00.005+08:00

i race with time

and i'm always a loser chasing after him

sigh.

i want to get rid of all these irritating stuffs

郁闷

2010-09-04T22:36:00.002+08:00

现在心情极度郁闷！！

我觉得自己快要被那座叫压力的山压死了

从前的开心日子不知道哪里去了，现在只觉得是为了责任而完成

我很郁闷很烦恼甚至反感

我很不想要变成一个只会逃避问题的人，可是我做不到

什么时候开始，我从一个人家说的“很强硬的女生”变得很脆弱，不堪一击

每次当你提起这话题时，我都不想回答

不是因为我无言以对，是我不想在你面前流眼泪

我经不起你那种关心的眼神

我只能望着你笑着说“我没事”

it's the raya break

2010-09-02T20:38:00.008+08:00

raya break is coming up,are you guys ready for the two-weeks break?

going anywhere with your special ones? or you plan to spend time all by yourselves?

before this i planned to spend my holidays with my family,for not going back home for quite some time.maybe ask them to go on a trip with me, go for movies and popcorns, perhaps a karaoke session!

but...aiks! my break was ruined =/

i have to finish stacks of assignments and presentations before school starts. tests, presentations after presentations after raya holidays,OMG.2 weeks time is definitely not enough for me

well, i will have 2 camps held in Bukit Mertajam and Skudai, soon during my break.yea,it's the CAMP again. sometimes me myself feel stressed about organizing camps, it's not like the camps that we did during our secondary, somehow i have a kinda responsible to make it a perfect and wonderful one. hope everything went well during our camp =)

oh yea,i went to Melacca last week,with my coursemates. it supposed to be a course trip,but end up only 6 of us went,haha. it was fun though! i could say that Melacca was really a nice place to travel! things are cheaper there, people there are friendly enough, and i LOVE the night scenery along the Sungai Melacca! because of that,i fell in love with Melacca, a romantic city i called =)

dont miss out to watch the night scenery if you got the chance to go there!

this is one of my favourite photo from Melacca trip, taken at the St Paul Church by a sweet angmoh lady.you know she even climbed on steep ground just to take a beautiful photo for us,how nice is she!

it's all for now,enjoy your holidays no matter where you are!

annyeong~

小小草

2010-08-30T20:50:00.002+08:00

很想说什么

但说不出口。。。

有时候，宁愿自己是个不知名的小人物

宁愿自己平凡

宁愿在自己的世界里沉默下去

花朵，永远都那么受人瞩目

而他，只是花朵身边的一棵小草

小草笑容灿烂，花儿略显娇柔

小草慵慵懒懒，花儿更显活泼

小草平平凡凡，花儿艳丽四射

别人只看得见花的美丽

但人们不知道的是，是小草衬托了花儿的美

花朵沾沾自喜

小草暗自垂泪

谁叫我是一棵小小草？

亲爱的，我想你们！

2010-08-15T19:23:00.002+08:00

啊，最近我的亲爱的他们过的好像不是很好，我好希望可以在你们身边给你们鼓励，陪你们大喊！

本来以为我会有时间找你们聊天的，但是现在我自己也忙到傻了。知道吗，从这个学期开学到现在，没有一天晚上我是可以在房间静静的发呆。基本上每天10点后才回到房间，又要洗衣服，然后睁着一半的眼睛作assignment。

累，心理很累。

你们的 fengfeng 开始撑不下去了。=/

啊，对了！我们大学来了一大班韩国学生哦！^^

我昨天跟他们出去，到瓜拉雪兰莪看萤火虫！

天啊，你们可以想象一下我昨天是多么多么多么开心！终于实现了我的愿望！

hohoho！而且啊，明天开始，我有一个专属老师教我韩语哦！我真的是“百忙之中”抽空出来学的，但为了完成我的韩国梦，死也要死过去！哈哈哈！！

上了课后在跟你们说我的韩国课故事吧！

我“主修”的活动-全中华生活营，下个星期开跑了！

说真的我很紧张，毕竟现在的身份不同了，所以我常常是压力多过享受。

希望我们会成功啦！

喂！你们！你们！你们！我想念你们的声音和sms！

不管什么事，记得要update我哈！

夜

2010-08-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

我看起来很得空？很悠闲？

如果是这样就好！

把自己搞得像超人酱，自己有时也不明白到底我要的“充实的大学生活”是不是就是这样。

有时候真的很累，搞不清楚是什么让我这样累。

不久前读到一篇文章说“某些人，就是会作贱自己，为了迎合别人，为了让大家喜欢”。感觉文章里写的那个人就是我。我每天忙来忙去，应该就是在忙着做别人喜欢的我。

自己也觉得很假，假到近乎真情，每天每天作着不是我的我，逼真到我都觉得那是真正的我

我班上有个很有智慧的同学说过 “总要为自己的人生创造一些刺激，有时候要做一些疯狂的事。可是千万不可以无时无刻都那么刺激，那么HIGH。偶尔制造的高潮会为你的人生带来一些快乐，可是当这些快乐一直被机械化的重复又重复，它就不是快乐了。” 他说“如果你一整天都很兴奋很HIGH很开心，这样一整天下来，到晚上冷静下来的时候你会感觉特别空虚，到底今天一整天我在HIGH什么？开心什么？” 他说那些可以制造出来的开心反而令你更不开心。

我也想做个每天摆臭脸，或者严肃的人，虽然会被排挤，但至少不必整天这样做贱自己。

可是怎么办？每次，看到闷闷不乐的朋友，我就会说些无厘头的笑话逗他笑，甚至自嘲，扮傻。

结果我就这样，变成很好欺负的人。

大家都认为我没有脾气，开玩笑也从来不客气，甚至要shoot我也不用考虑我的心情，因为他们知道我从来不会为这些事发脾气。

不知道，不知道！我也不想知道，烦死了！

publicity in UM

2010-07-19T21:42:00.004+08:00

全中华(QZH) is recruiting new juniors and members into our big family,so we went for publicity in many faculties and colleges(hostels)

today is me, Lian and Sheauwei's turn to duty,we went to 1st 2nd 6th college.

that was the first time since i entered UM,going to 1st and 6th college,funny isnt it?the funnier thing is we even asked a 1st year student how to go 6th college,and they feel unbelievable when we told them we're already 2nd year,they're like "i thought you're already 2nd year? but how come you dont know where's 6th college?" speechless.

but i promise i gotta walk more to these colleges cause you know what,all the future professionals are living there! the doctors the lawyers and engineers. how envious I am to be like the girls inside,unlike in my case,i'm only staying with accountants and business people,how boring...(wow,i'm staring to blame my life,and it's only the 2nd week of my 2nd year)

i suddenly felt so in love about doing publicity(usually i hate this) cause the juniors are cute!! they are so mannered and patiently listening to our long introduction. and i love chatting with them,they laughed and smiled over my stupid jokes and opinions about UM,i had this great sense of accomplishment after chatting with them. because everyone enjoyed when i was promoting this supposingly-boring QZH to them,haha

and seriously i found that more and more lenglui lengzai entered UM,wow~time to catch some new dish *evil grins*

i get to met 2 of my CHS juniors today!!!! Zi Wei and Jun Fai! so lucky of me =)

i could totally understand the feeling when they met me,just like you found an ice cream in the desert, i'm the ice cream anyways! i'm so excited knowing them and meting them inside UM campus, you know i always envy my friends over UMS or UUM,because they've got bunch of CHS seniors who took care them when they're new to uni. i always wanted a senior like that,i mean if you come from the same school,you'll somehow feel better seeing him or talking to him,right?

so,i'm going to be that kind of senior to the 5 pity chsians in UM,hehe..and btw,really love talking with chsian,they are smart yet 38 enough,perhaps we owned the CHS blood,so we feel so home =)

and i learned something today: smile and mood are affective to others.so always keep your mood lighten up and you'll see a beautiful world.

heyyy,i'm back!

2010-07-13T23:56:00.006+08:00

it's almost one month i didnt update my blog

after reading eu's blog,i feel like i should write something too

this was the best semester break i had,i went to China twice,to Beijing and Shanghai.

the first one is to attend a summer programme offered by the China HanBan (chinese education ministry),we stayed for 21 days and traveled to many many beautiful places.undeniably,i love Beijing, but not counting in the china people.THEY ARE WAY TOO RUDE!

and the following trip is all by my own,i went Shanghai, initially, to visit the World EXPO, but ended i spent more time to meet my friends and walked around with them.it's a great experience to EXPO,but believe me it wasnt THAT great like everyone said.one day is enough.

when i met all of my ex-coursemates in SJTU,i felt so sad,if it wasnt of the offer letter from UM,i will be there right now, staying with them, studying with them, having fun with them, clubbing with them, working in EXPO with them....

i always miss the life with my form6 friends and with the SJTUians

ok,back to the lovely malaysia by sunday night,tired like hell.

today,is the second day of my 2nd year life,still the same,my life is busy and packed.i swear i'm not going to join THIS much activities next year,i should really reserve my precious university semester break for my dear friends,i know you guys are blaming me for not appearing in much of the gatherings,haha

i moved to a new room, in the same College(hostel),and i had new roommates,beautiful girls :)

it's a stressful thing to stay with coursemate, i start to feel it now.not that she's not good, but i will stress on myself alot to avoid doing things that will cause her anger or dissatisfaction towards me.i'm now learning "the way of living", it's tough.

woohoo people~it's the new semester!!!!cheer up cheer up!! i believe all of us will have a great great time enjoying/busying with our lifes of 2nd year.no matter what,just be you and have fun!

ps: welcome the new juniors to my faculty my college my university and, welcome to my life =)

21 days in china

2010-06-17T01:41:00.003+08:00

hey my dear readers!!!!

i'm now in Beijing,China for a summer program which last for three weeks

and i will blog everything about my life and stories in Beijing in the new site

http://yfinchina.blogspot.com

feel free to drop by and say hi to me :)

i miss you peoples!

rainy day

2010-06-11T21:24:00.007+08:00

1500 raining cats and dogs

1550 it turned into drizzling rain.i could hear the rain drops dropping on the land,on my roof,it was not a type of harsh sound,but a mild one.my living room was dark yet cool,the air i breathe in still sticks with the smell of the rain.i lied myself in the sofa,held my head in the pillow,started to enjoy all of the sudden joy.

ahh~do you ever realized that your mind went so clear when you're alone nesting in the sofa at a rainy day?

1556 i reached for my mobile phone and start sending messages to the ones which i care most. it was a so-not-like-me style forwarding messages.

1600 i get a reply from one of them "how come so random sending me such touching message".haha,i smiled,i just do it without thinking.

1602 another message "so,when are you leaving?" "i'm leaving on the 13th of june", i've been answering this for a thousands time.but this is the first time i felt it was so near.day after tomorrow,and i'm leaving.

1610 my mind stay at the Beijing issue. FLY. well,this will be the first time to fly. i always wanted a chance to fly away from our country, to travel and walk around the whole world. to me,staying in a country for a whole life? for 50 years? NEVER! and because that i love freedom so much,i always try to find ways to get out from here.

from the learning trip to Taiwan, to the student exchange programme to US, followed by the besties trip to Korea, and even my Shanghai dream, till the latest Thailand sudden-cancelled-backpack-trip.they all failed.

sometimes i really doubt that there is something called "fate" in the world we lived in.

this time i finally have it successfully done,but i'm worried,is this a good sign or a bad sign?

i hope it's a good one.i will leave safe and come back safe :)

peoplesss,i will miss you!
xoxo

Ａ９聚会

2010-05-21T00:15:00.003+08:00

终于解脱了，终于可以甩掉平时的面具，做我喜欢的自己

今天是亭２１岁生日，因为他，我们大伙儿终于又聚在一起了！
卉亭生日快乐哦！！！
真的很喜欢跟你们在一起，就算是安静的吃饭，看电影，也甘愿
可是这帮人还是一样，爱在路上大喊大叫，见面一定要来个热情拥抱，打打闹闹骂来骂去的，还有不停的黄色笑话，无聊没氧的对话……可是怎么办，我就是喜欢这样的你们！

ＭＫ大老为了让我体验Ｆ１的感觉，竟然还飙车！实在是太好玩啦！！

今天

2010-05-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

原来吵架也可以很爽
谢谢你，拼命的跟我吵
不知道你是故意气我还是怎样，但我心情真的好很多了

最近觉得自己很情绪化
一点小事就能让我气到发飚、让我失落跌到谷底、让我的眼泪失控
有想控制，但力不从心
我真的不懂自己到底是怎么了
每次在这种时候，都很想有个人在我旁边
听我抱怨也好，任我打骂也好，借我肩膀也好，给我一个鼓励的拥抱也好
但原本可以做到的那些人，已经离开了，新的嘛，没指望找到

怎么酱啊，来大学这么久，还是不会独立
好像很失败哦？

holding back the tears

2010-04-29T17:43:00.003+08:00

this song can really give you a lot of power when you're sad or down,even you dont understand any of the lyrics,but they can touch your heart with their strong vocals
though it's a long ago song from DBSK,i just somehow love it so much,and it'll never get rid of my playlist :)
when you're happy,you might find this song abit sentimental
but believe me,when you really feel like crying and you cant stop the feeling of crying,listen to this,it works for me

"holding back doesnt mean letting go,you are just hiding it when you need to"

miss A9

2010-04-18T01:25:00.005+08:00

i miss ur sweet smses
i miss ur tight HUGsss ur loud voice
i miss ur cute emo face *pinch*
i miss ur buddy talk ur broad smile =)
i miss ur unsavoury chats -.-
i miss ur lovely touch on my head
i miss ur lame jokes in ur comfortable car
i miss ur heineken stories

seriously miss u!!!!!!

holiday =))

2010-04-14T22:27:00.004+08:00

i wish to go Phuket,Thailand for a backpack trip with WaiMun!
i wanna hang out with my super A9 CLUB peoples!!!! go genting go sing k go movies go shopping go eat and yamcha!!!!!!!!truly miss the FUN!
i want to watch MAYDAY's concert on 5th June!
i hope to go ShangHai for the World Expo 2010 and to find my darling =)
i want to join the inter uni camp on this coming sem break

i'm wanting so many activities on my coming holiday
but i only have limited $$$ and time
anybody wanna join me for any of the activities? :)

it's Golden Half !!!!

2010-04-13T16:03:00.004+08:00

YES,this is a camera! a small tiny 35mm toy camera called the GOLDEN HALF
and it's mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i accidentally saw an article and found out this thing call LOMOGRAPHY
yea,just like you,i wonder what on earth is lomo,will it be anything better than DSLR?
well,then i check out on web,and found those lomo camera are really cute!!!!and some of the pictures are even better than DSLR ones,click here to see those fantastic pictures =]
they have some special features which normal digital camera doesnt have (i'm still working on it,cos i just get it 2 hours ago) hehe
btw,this is worthy cos it's way too cheap compared to the DSLR,well i guess i have to postpone my plan of buying a DSLR,since DSLR is a trend now,having one isnt that special anymore
i believe taking photos with my golden half will surely be more enjoyable and fun and "noticeable",hahaha

dont worry guys,will show you my Red Riding when i hang out with ya'll =)

我要一个肯定

2010-04-09T00:13:00.004+08:00

只要是别人给我的东西，都要抱着感恩的心态，我是这样觉得的
就算是别人给予的一个勉强的微笑，但至少是他努力挤出来的，应该要感激才是啊！

现在我才知道，我最不喜欢的，就是当我很努力地付出，以为你一定会很感激我，你却完全不领情的样子
我才知道，我一直都是靠着别人给我的肯定，活着的。
所以我常常会做出一些很“伟大”的举动和决定，因为我希望别人开心，因为我想要别人喜欢我，因为我需要别人认同我，因为只有这样我才能继续活下去。

我会为了让你开心，做一些没有人会做的愚蠢的事，但你却把我当傻瓜
我会为了哄你，很用心的亲手做东西给你，你却无动于衷
为了让你看到我，我努力努力很努力的表现，你看到的始终是我旁边的人

被忽略的滋味，不是好受的
我要求不多，就只是要一个肯定
“谢谢你！”
有那么难吗？

我遇上了100%的女生

2010-04-03T14:17:00.002+08:00

世界上怎么有那么perfect的人啊？
人长得美，头脑好，有才华
又是个充满爱心的护士，而且很孝顺
活泼开朗，亲切随和
天啊，真的好喜欢这个女生啊！
嘻嘻~这就是所谓的爱屋及乌吗？

it's about love in universities

2010-03-22T22:14:00.003+08:00

we discussed the LOVE topic in our class just now
my lecturer said something that makes me really upset
as all of us know University is the best place where u can experience LOVE
she encouraged us to find our true love in uni, if not at least experience it
she said this is the stage of life you must went through and this is the place where u shouldn't be hiding your feelings, she wants us to be brave and seek our Mr/Ms Right. she said never feel embarrassed about loving people, once you've found the right person, dont be shy dont let go and fight for love (i was like omg,she's cool)
this is the part which makes me upset, she said, if till the day you graduate u're still a piece of white paper, u're counted fail, failing the biggest subject in life. even you graduate with honors, but actually u're still not graduated from life

and we,the single ones were like "huh?Mdm Wong, do u have to mean it that way? is it that serious about being single?"
and my lecturer was like "hahaha" and ended this topic -.-
*ouch*
what a suffering lesson for me, it's pathetic cos i'm not in love and i never had one
so should i really start to search for a bf, in this hurry? ..i wonder

HEY hey people out thr,which are still SA, heard what my lecturer said? hurry up go find your love!now! before it's too late =P

a visit to RTM

2010-03-22T20:59:00.003+08:00

we went to RTM yesterday for a crosstalk performance. our teacher only chose 2 teams to perform,and we're one of them =)) *proud proud*
but i wasnt satisfied with my performance yesterday,could say it's terrible.
but somehow it's a great experience to have visit to RTM!! and i managed to see the DJs on air
see,this is the ON AIR sign in each n every radio station

this is the place where u can see DJ LIVE here~!!!!!
there are around 17 fm in RTM,so we visited almost 17 radio stations in a day!hehe

tada~ AIFM
one of our crosstalk teacher - DJ Jay Ho Jia Wen is a DJ from AIFM
they're really amazing!!they only have 18 DJs in AIfm, and the DJs have to do everything,i mean EVERYTHING!! include writing advertisements scripts, find advertisements, marketing, do roadshows, organize meeting ups with AIfm listeners, etc...
now only i know a DJ's job isnt easy,especially when u're working for government
and i'm impressed by their efficiency :)

we also experienced how it feels like watching a SIARAN LANGSUNG show
it's a singing competition organized by RTM with chinese radio station AIfm & indian radio station MINALfm. so the show is named "Bintang AiMinal"
there was this very very very funny competitor that make all of us laugh off our chairs
he's a indian guy with this super rocker outfits, the way he sings and shake, looks like a uncle trying to be young,not being sarcastic but his whole image is just FUNNY and seriously very entertaining
felt so sorry that the whole bunch of us were damn noisy,non stop laughing and comment alot during the show ><

the half bunch of the monkeys
and the middle one does look like monkey head XP

*realizing i'm not updating the stories in my life, so here u go, a simple update from me( actually i'm living my everyday with lots of interesting stories)
tmr will be the exciting APK day, but i'm so sick,i'm afraid i couldnt handle well, please give me full support,i dont wanna ruin this project
our 9th College's prom night is coming this saturday!!! yeefeng's gonna have a big change, watch out,whee~~

love all my readers
XOXO

解脱 =)

2010-03-12T21:35:00.005+08:00

也许他并不是我爱的人
真正的感情，应该是两个人的默契，将两颗心的距离缩短，慢慢靠近彼此。
从好朋友到情人，真正的感情是用不了多久的。

很多时候，我们不是喜欢某个人，而是某个形象，那个符合你心中100%的形象。

我们总说：“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。”
但是，怎样才算是很爱很爱？你却无法回答，因为你自己也不知道。

我们总以为，会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是后来，当我们猛然回首，我们才发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过，在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没有发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经等你很久了。

或许，我早该知道，我爱的不是他。
虽然他能令我怦然心跳
但真正的感情需要的不只是心跳吧？
爱情不是生命的一切，但没有爱情的生命就不完整
为了完整而去爱，是愚蠢的
突然得到解脱，是好事 =)

he likes my best friend

2010-03-06T00:16:00.005+08:00

i like him
she likes him
he likes her

sad ending isnt it?

teardrops on my guitar

2010-01-26T13:43:00.002+08:00

i'm not sure why i'm here,but i just ought to be here
strange feelings,but not sure what was that
hatred? disappointment? tiredness?
maybe all of them

many things happened,i'm feeling so bad terribly down
but i couldnt find a person to talk to
now only i realized, all the friends i had beside me are just friends, pure friends
friends are to share happiness,not sorrow
while all my soul mates, which i used to rely on
they're too far away
as the saying goes "far water couldnt save near fire" (omg,direct translate,weird)

somebody said, "you thought you're bad,but actually you're not the worst"
yea,maybe i'm just like a crazy dog barking here and there shouting about my pain
but sometimes,a carzy dog like me, needs care,needs hugs,needs love,needs courage,needs support

but nobody knows,no one ever bothered

断章

2010-01-14T11:20:00.004+08:00

你站在桥上看风景

看风景的人在楼上看你

明月装饰了你的窗子

你装饰了别人的梦

happy birthday

2010-01-10T14:10:00.005+08:00

omg,i just found out that his birthday was same as my first crush

EXACTLY THE SAME !!

haha,it's so weird

yet i'm excited!!

is this a kinda fate or...? i wonder

hope i could give up my fear this time and wish him a

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =))

happy 2010

2010-01-01T13:14:00.006+08:00

photos by sheng

HAPPY NEW YEAR
to all my beloved readers!!!
it's 2010 now
we still have 2 times countdown before the world ends XD
i'm excited!

2009 is over
forget about the sad past
keep only the sweet memories
have a nice start for 2010
and enjoy throughout this whole year
those i cared and loved, may god bless u

*i'm planning on something for this bright year, teehehe =) *

emo

2009-12-24T01:36:00.004+08:00

my holiday will be ending in 4 days time

time past so fast that i didnt even realize we'd separate for 1 year after stpm

thinking about last years' same time,we're still having fun in genting,i miss it!

glad to see you people just now,though it's short,but it makes me happy,at least :)

coming back to this reality life,doesnt make me feel any better

i hate to face my real self

i know running off couldnt solve the problems,but all i will do is escape

i sux rite?

shit happens

hope everything will change for this coming new year

感觉，…

2009-12-19T22:50:00.003+08:00

好不容易，写了一段文字

可是，怎么看都没感觉

从来没有过的

第一次，没有留念，没有伤感，没有回忆

是我的问题吗？

心，被压抑得很辛苦

一种酸痛的感觉

是失落吗？

是失望吗？

是心疼吗？

好像是

我竟然，也像一只迷失的羔羊

迷失方向，迷失自己

静静呆在那里，等待我感性的主人

把我，带回去

BROGA

2009-11-24T11:23:00.003+08:00

the beautiful sunrise up the hills
*taken by lqh*

we had a 2days 1 night camp in Broga Hills
the day before the camp starts,i mmg super bo mood to go, plus all my QZH gang didnt attend,i'm all by myself, makes me feel like ffk-ing
but i'd promised my department head, the president and my ketua,i cant go off last minute like that..therefore i did showed up next day with a SIEN face
i'm glad i was there!!luckily i didnt ffk, cos i really had a great great time through that trip!
and i met some really nice nice people thr,wheee~~~ i love spending time with them XD

we managed to conquer the hills!!! yeah!
though my legs were still very pain now,great that i didnt give up climbing,everything is worth the pain :)

i love thy scenery up there,it was beautifullll ^^

even if u dont,
but the best memories will be left in my mind and my heart

bibim bap♥♥♥

2009-11-18T14:35:00.006+08:00

oh man,finally!!!!!!!!!!
i'm done with my exam hoorayyyyy =)
1711 has passed
2012 has watched
super yummy worthy thai food has eaten
my lovely narutally NEW ZEALAND NATURAL ice-cream has enjoyed, teehehe
but $$$ has gone from my purse

what's left?
yeah, my beautiful H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.

okay,stop the nonsense
today i tried out making my FAV korean dishes BIBIM-BAP
woah,it's a success,it taste almost the same like i ate in kaima
thanks alot to the korean blogger maangchi who taught me how to make it =)
gonna try out some other korean dishes next time
way moving on to be the perfect Mrs Jung ♥

masterpiece of mrs jung

1711 countdown

2009-11-15T12:23:00.003+08:00

i cant wait anymore

i wanna watch 2012

i wanna go cheong k

i want my holiday, NOW!!!!!

ystd EU called me,haha,makes me enjoyed a little thru my boring study daysss

he said smtg reli LMAO

" i'm coming back early, i dont know 23/11 will be what day lahh,but sure i'll be free that day"

hahahahaha

the way he said was so funny, but i'm happy for that weeheee (:

opps, i'm goin to sunway on 19th

ICE SKATING kononnya XP

been ages since i last skate, sure'll pok gai alot this time

but what makes me excited is i'm goin to the legendary "KAKI CORNER" wuhu~~~

and last last thing,can we go AMP@sunway to cheong k this time?? i heard my bro & sis who went thr before, they said it's not bad

i'm so looking forward to u guys homecoming ,miss & luvv lots

路人甲

2009-11-10T23:44:00.002+08:00

他总是充当路人甲的角色

长得普普通通，成绩也普普通通

平时在班上，他总是被遗忘

照片里没有他，搞活动没有他，庆生会没有他

毕业后的聚会里，依然，没有他

小学是这样，中学也是这样

他，顶多只是，熟悉的路人甲

我问路人甲，你喜欢当路人吗？

他说，我不喜欢，我其实也想当主角

我说：那就努力啊！努力改变啊！

他问：要怎么改变啊？

我：要改变，要当主角，想要得到注意，这还不容易？学学那些受欢迎的人，是怎么说话，是怎么打扮，就可以了嘛

路人甲说：我试过了。可是我发现我变得很虚伪，很不快乐，每天嬉皮笑脸的。为了迎合别人的喜好而变成另外一个人，最后连我的本性都找不回。表面上，我好像很快活，其实我已经忘记最单纯的微笑是怎么一回事了。你觉得这样的改变值得吗？

我，不知道

“所以，我还是当回我的路人甲吧”

不完美的

2009-11-05T23:07:00.005+08:00

小时候，面对喜欢的人，
对着他，咧嘴一笑，毫不害臊一句“我喜欢你”
即使不确定那是纯粹爱慕，还是好感
也会喜欢你，勇敢地

长大后，遇到一个可以喜欢的人，却没有喜欢他的勇气
“懦弱”，就像年龄，是越大就越多了吗？
或许不应该太坚持
也许不要太在意结果

有些感觉，消失了就永远都找不回
一些决定，没有果断就没有结果
这个时候，如果再来一次
我是否还会犹豫？
你是否不会拒绝？

再面对你的时候，我不会舍不得
想起你的时候，我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你，深深的

awesome

2009-10-25T04:33:00.005+08:00

i just came back from redbox
and guess what?
i'm with my parents & their close friend till THISS HOUR
waosh,night life roxx!

i think my parents were just AWESOME!!!!
especially my mom,who loves to sing k with me, bring me for liquors, and she promised to bring me to ICE BAR at my coming birthday,yeah!!

the 1st sem of my pretty uni life has come to an end, and i'll be having exam in 1 weeks time
looking back,i didnt really gain much through these months, not knowledge, nor relationships, getting worst instead =(
had to lift mysf to a higher level & achievements next sem
btw,best of luck to those who'll be sitting for exam,including my sister

ciaoz people,sweet dreams
feng

十月 XD

2009-10-19T15:43:00.004+08:00

“芬芬”
突然很喜欢这个称呼
在这里，我CC 的家庭成员都酱叫我
虽然我们的感情不是说很好啦，但是我就是喜欢他们酱叫我
感觉很亲，有一种被疼爱的感觉，呵呵

昨天晚上收到亭的信息，内容就是几粒字“我跟他在一起了！”
本来赶论文到赶到半夜，赶到昏昏欲睡的我，顿时兴奋到~~一直在那边咯咯笑
他们说别人拍拖干你什么事？
我也不知道，大概是看到好友找到自己的幸福，替他们感到特别高兴吧！
哟，迫不及待你们回来了，真的好想念你们哦！

终于把烦人的论文搞定了，心中的大石终于可以放下了
现在剩下的只是其他科的书面报告、11月的考试，还有全中华和大相的活动
哇哈哈，兴奋兴奋！！我要出街咯~！

birthday shoutouts!

2009-10-14T18:23:00.005+08:00

today is SHUYING's birthday!!!!!
my gawd, this is the first time i didnt celebrate with you,i'm a bad friend am i?
so sorry...u even grumbled to eu eu that i didnt wish you till the last minute
but u knew i still love you and of cos rmb ur bd like i always do!!

last yr's bd,when u're still with your LONG hair,and when i'm still pretty =P

do u still rmb the 2 of us, following those 38 juniors to genting ?
thinking of it now is still unbelievable,both of us really are those "mood comes everything Ok" type

i dont know how..but we just end our f6 life like that...

oh yea,we had another genting trip,with our family

this was taken when we sit on the funny cable car thing

in the end,both of us went into sjtu,together..such a fate

and you CUT your hair,wakkaka

though i'm not thr now

though i dump you alone thr,facing some reli unsolvable problems

but nothing can break us apart k,u're always the VIP in my heart

lastly hope

*u & ym sweet sweet forever

*can get rid of her annoying attitude asap

*ur shuyingcardmaking.com company will be a success $$$

and yes,i'll make a belated-home-made-FOOD for u,weehehe~~

slowly wait for it ba!!

-sengeul chulka hanmida-

dizzy. fainting. soon

2009-10-09T00:09:00.004+08:00

i dont know how can i fell down by walking on the staricase
it hurts >.<

i've started to lost my sights, my thoughts and my body
everytime i went home,my mom says "you looked so pale nowadays"

i can really feel it,the thing that's protesting inside my body
but i'm forcing mysf not to FALL at this moment

i felt so sorry to my body
i've been abusing my body for a long time
it's really time for break. hold on till november please

mooncake festival

2009-10-06T14:21:00.008+08:00

hey!! how's everyone's MOONCAKE FESTIVAL??

especially those who're far away from your home sweet home

i'm sure by lookin at the STEAMBOUT and RED WINE makes you guys starting to miss me(finally) hehe. i miss ya'll too,very very much

we had a simple steambout celebration last week,and if u guys were here, i would be extremely happy invite u to my hse, too bad, we're too far away :(

well my dears, we still got 1 more month to meet up,thinking about it already makes me feel excited!!!! woohoo~~

so so, i ended up driving my friend over to my hse since she didnt go back to celebrate,her name is 美艳 she's my coursemate+ collegemate. is also one of my close friend in UM

my mom ^^

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talking about PESTA TANGLUNG

it's like all the Unis in msia celebrate this festival,haha...

ours just ended yesterday with a superb DRAMA...gosh,i just love them!

tada~these are some photos i took during our exhibition week,those PATUNGs were hand-made! and all of them were exhibition ajks hardwork

btw, i'm ajk for exhibition bureau =) proud of them

月老

精巧可爱的奈何桥

我最最最爱的黑白无常！！

well well,joining PTUM doesnt only work work work all day but we do ENJOY!!!

we had alot of activities and road shows and performance throughout the whole week

i get to see so many DJs and celebrities,mwahaha!!!

培杰

if i'm not mistaken this is one of eu's fav singer?

FRIENDZ

they were extremely cuteee and active

with 威少♥

幸福 ^^

2009-09-26T19:12:00.001+08:00

19/09/09
第一次下线筹款哦，就把第一次献给全中华~
那天早上就下大雨了，雪飞驾着她灵活的小鹿，来接我们去增江(jinjang)下线
看到雨那么大，她怕怕~幸好上highway就没雨了
那个阿紫够力搞笑，自己是增江人，竟然不懂路=.= 不过还好没有迷路
到jinjang巴刹后，8点多就开始下毛毛雨，一整个早上好像就是在下雨
一整天下来，我们五个筹到500多块。虽然不多，可是那包钱里有大家的汗水+口水+雨水
还是值得。。

身体有点湿…… 可是雨后的天空真的很蓝。
呼吸着增江雨后的空气，感觉有点熟悉，像是阿麽家下雨后，出来骑脚车，会嗅到的那种，清新的味道。我喜欢 ^^

第一次下线就酱，结束了，难得开心的早上

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
20/09/2009
最近身边喜事特别多，我表姐结婚了！！！
我期待了好久好久哦
这两个大小孩真是绝配啊！！无论是外表还是性格，可爱到~~看着他们，我也觉得自己很幸福

当！当！当！当！
是不是很有婚纱照模特儿的feel？
他们的婚纱照美到~~~爆！
婚纱店还把他们的照片作成poster来打广告哦

喝喜酒当晚表姐也是穿绿色的晚装，green = glamorous

♥我们这一家♥
这张照片很珍贵的哦，因为那个灰衣的家伙竟然肯跟我们合照，难得耶 =P

妈妈和我　

这是出嫁当天早上，二姨和姨丈为表姐盖头纱

这只腊肠狗，是表姐夫家的其中一只宠物，叫“家家”

家家颈上的ribbon是表姐夫的爸爸帮它绑上去的，uncle说狗狗也是家的一分子，也要跟我们一起庆祝，嘻嘻，真是可爱！

很久没有看到笑容灿烂的我了吧？嘻嘻

哎哟，我的脸真的黑了很多耶 =(

得到幸福的，我会为你们祈祷，希望你们永远幸福

还没得到幸福的，我也会为你们祈祷，愿你们早日找到“幸福”

我的 . 祝福

2009-09-22T00:44:00.009+08:00

leiheng，祝福你哦

听到你的消息，真的是很兴奋很开心很OMG

我知道你很幸福，但是不可以重色轻友

要不然，打你的哦！

希望xian会好好保护你啦

还有，我不可以再叫你dear了

这将是他的专用称呼

怎么有一种很伤感的感觉？

好像我们的距离越来越远

不管怎样，我们都替你感到开心

我是真心希望你幸福哦

photos

2009-09-16T19:53:00.005+08:00

hey buddies...i just wanna update u guys my latest photo,so that u all wont forget my pretty face *ek-hem*
few weeks ago we attend a wedding dinner at my kpg,my cousin sister who's getting married,gosh,she was so pretty,hardly recognise her
this is her SEXY back,lolx.i love her greenie night gaun!! glamorous~

left is my cute&lenglui "aunty" (she's my dad's cousin,means she shud be my aunty,but....she's only 18 =.= )

okie,time to let u all have a clear pic abt the friends&gangs i'm currently into
i guess all of you who followed my blog knows that i'm sticking myself in a activity called 全中华 aka QZH

we took this at Ipoh KTM
this is my first time i get to Ipoh Railway Station,because of QZH
standing at the left is Sheau Wei,she's my best buddy in QZH
because of her,i changed;because of her,i'm working so hard;because of her,i'm well recognized by the seniors and therefore kena "transfered" to 节目组@全中华...she's reli a great friend!
standing in the middle,is my coursemate & my best friend now,Siew Kien, pretty girl huh~
that guy with spects is from my college,his name is Kelvin,a super 38 guy,with good acting skills
guy at the right is AhWeng,erm.comment-less

this is the group photo we took at 定慧居佛堂@怡保
the scenery thr was so nice
and the vegetarian food>>DELICIOUS~!!!!

this photo was taken after our role play in a game called 法政先锋

the 4 main characters: see eng, kelvin, me, azi

i love this pic,we looked like a family ,sweet =)

tada~~last week went for GaRhui bd celebration(as told in previous post)

keke,peeps,can u recognise this place?

YES!!! it's our fav ZanMai !!!

they're just so kind,i suggest to ZM they just followed without objection,teehehe,so i get to eat my lovely sushisssss in ZM

this is 雪飞,another QZH cuttie senior..she's a Chinese,i mean a true China gal

that's the only 4 gals that day,kesian nia~

at the right side is Audrey,i will shout everytime i saw her,know why?

cos she's a Cassiopeia!

so that's all for now, conclusion : i looked very teruk in the pics.ish.regret posting them up >.<

random

2009-09-11T23:48:00.004+08:00

happy birthday to GA RHUI~!!!!!
he's one of my friend in QZH4
we went to Gardens Red Box to celebrate his birthday just now
thanks to them,i get to step out to gai gai since i entered UM!!!
and because of them,i managed to wipe off my emo-ness,they've made my day =)

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hey,unsavoury chan!!!!!
i dont know whether u'll saw this post,but u must read this!!!!

how dare you lost contact with me,at all????how dare you??? how dare you!!!!!
u got a blog,but u didnt tell me
u never call me or send me a message since you enter uni
ish!!! i tell u,i'm MAD AT YOU UNSAVOURY CHAN!!!!!
u better "la la seng" contact me weii,or else i kill u >.<

+++++++++++++++++++++++
papa,thank you,u know what i meant =)
dear,i'm sorry i didnt pick your phone dat day,i hope i dont disappoint you,cos i'm still busy for these moment,and will continue busy untill aft raya i guess...next time only chat k!

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那天弄伤的脚和头，还是隐隐约约的痛着
一个星期过了，脚上的伤口还是很明显，搞到我都不想穿短裤 =(
可是，那颗受伤的心，已经恢复得差不多了
不要担心，芬芬很坚强的！！

心。逝

2009-08-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

最近心情的起伏很大很大，大概是受到身边人不良磁场的影响吧？
今早心情是很好的，可刚刚心情郁闷到极点，也没啥原因，就酱~

心，大概是累坏了吧

我一直在寻找让我敞开心胸欢笑的理由
找不到……
不懂什么时候开始，我在别人眼中的开怀大笑原来都只是假象
其实我的内心并不是那么快乐的

麻木地开心，是件辛苦的差事

你是万能的吧？什么事都难不倒你吧？想问：
心，可以换吗？

全中华4

2009-08-24T23:13:00.003+08:00

全中华4北马分站终于圆满落幕了
真的不想回到这个残酷的现实哦！

才过了一个星期，我已经严重爱上全中华4 了
虽然间中我有犯错，可是我的组长很好，没有责怪我
而且别的筹委都很喜欢我啦，他们都很喜欢作弄我，还有一个人1st yr 的超级爱作弄我。。。怎么？我这么好欺负吗？

这次培训营认识了一班可爱，好玩，疯疯癫癫的筹委
和他们在一起的那段日子真的令我难忘，我们经历了许多许多，以致我们感情这么好（毛毛虫，我们真的经历了风风雨雨噢！不要忘记我们就是“怡保山下的毛毛虫”）
生活营的营员们也都很好噢！！他们并没有排斥我这个总务组的“半个辅导员”
总是很体贴的让我参与他们，会和我说笑，会勾起我的手叫我加入他们，会抱着我哭，会发简讯给我。。。他们真的令我很感动，爱死他们了！
还有就是，怡保真的是出产帅哥美女的地方，我们的营员各个都长得超正的！！

北马分站就酱结束了，感觉一个星期真的过得好快
南马分站将在两个星期后进行，希望到时一切顺利！

全中华，4！全中华，4！全中华，事事顺利！huat 啊！

photos taken [UM]

2009-08-14T21:05:00.008+08:00

these are some of the photos i took in UM
it's very few,sui bian take a look bah!

this is my family~吹水挡
we went to K box,remember i mentioned at the previous post?
from left is Carmen(mama), Joo(8妹),HooiLing(9妹), ChinYin(my 二姐), YiWei (3姐)

this is our lovely family photo when we went for treasure hunt!!

combination of 2 families

we 吹水挡 and our neighbour 叉烧包家族 !!!

our family photo again~~during station games

5 of the station games,we WON 4

cos 4 of it is related to water,sure win la!!we're 吹水挡 eh!!

this is my SEL(means group) members during Orientation Week

i got alot Malay friends ohh~!!!

these are the only 2 chinese gal-friends in my SEL,kesian rite?

they're both lenglui eh!!

left is HooiLing,which ended up one of my family member (9th sister)

right is Viviane,a smart ACCA student,cute gal

this is Mickey,one of the chinese i get to know during orientation week,cos she's beside my SEL

this is my coursemate & college-mate(we're 9th college-ians)秀娟

we took this after our duty at 素食摊

the background stall is our stall..we sell drinks,ABC,and 西米露

on our table is our product!!!! 蜜瓜西米露,very highly recommended by me =)

my family ♥吹水挡

2009-08-03T17:55:00.007+08:00

我们CC的Interaction Picnic 终于圆满结束了，真是个愉快的周末啊！！我在九舍有一个family ，名字叫“吹水挡”，因为我们最会吹水！（吹啊？！）LOL

昨天每个family都要去outing，我们去了ss2 K Box 唱K！！过后还去了我们吹水挡旗下的分行--吹吹水cafe拍全家福~！！
唱k 的时候，我们遇到我们的邻居--蛋蛋家族！结果我们两家的老人家就一直去别人家的K房踩场 =.="

wohoho!!!!昨天真的超开心的，终于找到能唱“为你而活”的人了，而且功力比我好很多咯！！他就是我的“大哥”子彬！！PRO啦！！然后我们family member从此就叫我们 “神木儿童”，炸到...
*eu eu 你被比下去了，哈哈...
更搞笑的是隔壁家来踩场的senior，当我和子彬合唱melodi的时候，他没有看到坐在角落的我在合唱，就问“谁在唱？”
我的“爸爸妈妈”就讲是我啦！
他就很惊讶地看我一下，“你唱歌很好听咧～！！！我还以为是audio的声音！！”
唱完歌他又“挖角”我进KK9 choir，我也不知道说什么好，总之很开心就对了！

告诉你们哦！！我们CC I-picnic 的theme song 是 “SHINING FRIENDS”　和“一个像夏天，一个像秋天”。　尖叫吧～！！！！
我一拿到booklet简直high 到不行！！太巧了吧？？我们的歌耶~！！害我又忍不住想念你们了！！！

还有，I-picnic 有很多舞曲，其中一个“GET HIGH”也是我们的Ｋ歌，对吧？
每当他们播 get high 的时候，就叫我去lead 大家，跳舞！！哈哈哈．．．很难想象咧～（下次找到video就会upload来这边，连我自己也觉得我跳到很yeng咯！而且重点是舞步全是自创的哦！！）
连我roommate 都说她没有想到我可以这么active , 38, high 的！
aiyo，那当然啦，我是因为来了ＵＭ变安静一点，原本的我，不懂３８到什么程度呢，wakaka...

btw,inform u all,我的8月假期泡汤了~~也不是泡汤啦，是我把它牺牲掉了
我成为“全中华营”的执委，整个假期得去培训营和北马分站，虽然没有时间休息，可是我很兴奋耶！！！可以和中学生“再续前缘”，就让我精神抖擞！！哈哈

对不起，这个post我已经写了好多天，都忘记我还有什么要写了。如果我拿到照片，我就post上来给你们看吧！BB =)

1 month in UM

2009-08-01T11:34:00.003+08:00

我病了，终于熬出病来了
我真的觉得自己像疯子一样，参加了几百种activity，结果真的把自己搞垮了
不过我还是很乐在其中！！呵呵

告诉你们！UM华文学会有很多帅哥哦！！！真是没后悔进PBCUM
by the way，eu 你的学姐，洁雯，她现在是我的学姐，而且也是PBCUM上一届的副主席，她真的很38，很好玩咯，haiz...为什么我不是和他们同年的咧？
ok，回去刚才的topic，我“gap”到一个阳光男孩哦！！！！
他的头发是卷卷的，爆炸头那种feel，样子不算很帅，有点腼腆shyshy的，but 就会让人不自觉喜欢他，cos 他的笑容真的好灿烂哦！！而且他是guitar高手，歌声也不错...
看到他，心情都变好了，嘻嘻

生病的人真的会特别想家哦...

今天和明天都不能回家，我们KK9的CC (华人社团)有活动& family outing
又要去3838了咯！！woohoo~~

ciaoz ^^

生活？

2009-07-24T20:56:00.002+08:00

我发觉，自从进马大后，我变得不像自己了，不再像以前那么38和爱笑了
可能是环境，可能是身边的人，可能是课业和活动的压力
我真的真的只有在和亭馨莹，他们讲电话的时候才比较开心，呵呵

嗯，我是真的很忙咯，所以不要再怪我没有update啦...
我参加了几项活动:
1.宿舍的AJK - 7月尾/8月头
2.PTUM 马大灯笼节展览组委员 - 9月
3. 佛学会素食摊 - 8月中
4. 华文学会相声组财政
5. 马大华文学会财务处委员
昨天去财务处开会的时候，当我说我是junior,他们都以“惊讶”的眼神看着我，哈哈...至于为什么1st year 的junior可以当上华文学会相声组财政呢？我也不明白
可能是我太主动去询问关于相声班的东西吧,结果莫名其妙被选为财政

才开了几次meeting,我已经觉得很stress了，真的很多事情要忙要赶，很多东西要学，还要被某些人说“1styear最得空，所以应该做这做那”，每天带着那种压力，很辛苦 =(
不过，唯一让我觉得有“生存感”的是... ... 我终于感觉到男生的存在了！！！！
之前某人和某人打电话给我，和我聊起男生的话题，我都觉得自己超级不正常，我对男生一点反应都没有，看到男生就好像看到路旁的野草
哈哈哈，终于在出席了华文学会的meeting时，见到了所谓“比较正常”的男生，才知道原来UM还有不错的草!! 真的很不错哦!!

来说说我上课的情况,目前为止还OK,有些东西是我在sjtu学过的，所以大致上应付得来
只是，assignment& presentation 真的有够多！！！才上3个星期的课，我已经present了一次，还有6个presentation ，4个assignment 和5份report排着队要做
coursemate都ok啦，合得来，可是还是没有办法和我们sjtu的38gang相比。我很怀念在sjtu的日子咯，好想念你们哦~！！！你们是最棒的！！
我的老师也ok，不可能跟sjtu的老师比啦，可是华语已经算标准的了，我很喜欢我的academic advisor 王老师，她人很好噢，很亲切又善良，而且他的课很interesting的，我们每个星期在课堂上都有辩论session的咧，每次都好像打仗酱...

好了，我的update大概到这里，我要去做功课了
我相信接下来的日子会有很多很"interesting"的事发生，放心，我一定会告诉你们的！IF我有时间的话，LOL
就这样咯，ｆｅｎｇ／鱼粉很想念你们哦！！保重！

update from me( formal)

2009-07-15T01:05:00.003+08:00

this was my first time moving out from my home sweet home to a totally diff place,thou it's still near to my hse,haha..
for the first time i have to stay with people from diff race and nations which i dont know at all
for the first time i have to rely everything on my own,because no one is there for u,to help u settle problems,to remind you when you should reach your faculty,to bother if you have had your lunch or dinner,to joke with you...
for the first time i really misses my home sooo much
i nearly cried on phone because i didnt get to meet my mom or even hear my mom's voice for 1 week

i felt so grateful to papa n teng.really appreciate papa who called me at my 2nd day of orientation,because i sounds very tak ok tru msg? *touched touched*

and thx Teng!!! the only one besides papa who called me to chit chat with me,promise to make you TongSui when u get back!!

well,i ad get used to the life here in Kolej Kediaman 9 (besides the rob) and life in UM
ChinYee was in the same course as me!!! she's the only one i know during interview who get into the same course,i'm grateful~!!
my roommates are really nice nice nice people!! it's a pleasure staying with them..they're both experienced hostel penghuni,so they actually taught me quite lots stuffs,hehe =)

to be continued...

1st post abt UM

2009-07-14T23:19:00.005+08:00

i'm not updating my blog since i entered UM,cos i'm super busyyy
btw,what makes me updating my blog today,is because some reli reli UNFORTUNATE things happened today,this morning,the 2nd week of my UM life!!!
THERE ARE SNATCH THIEVES AROUND OUR CAMPUS
U CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND THE FEAR I HAD

this morning,me and my friend failed to squeze in the UM MINI bus,cos it's too packed,so we decided to walk since it's only a 15mins walk.
it was a bright morning 7.40am in a peak road with many cars and motorbikes passing by
who knows...who knows....
when we almost reach the UM pondok keselamatan,we heard a girl screamed,then i saw the girl was kicked down to floor,and the damn robber snatched her necklace
that time me and my friend was right infront of her,i dunno can i count myself as lucky because i'm not the target of the robber..
i'm worried,i scared i'm the next victim
if ever u saw this, or went through this, you'll get what i mean..
please take care yourselves everywhr and everytime my friends, i dont hope anyone of you go through this...
ps to my family members: i'm ok,i didnt get hurt, ask mom not to worry much abt me,i'll take care mysf,loves

UM and SJTU

2009-06-20T18:43:00.003+08:00

yes,i'm offered for the chinese course in UM
yea,i know it's a place where every malaysian dream of
it's true,giving up this offer is a waste,cause not everyone can walk in this door

my dad gave me this offer: he want me to delay my abroading to china
rules & regulation:
now spend 3/4 years time study in UM,
after i got the degree,he promise to continue paying for my Masters in the Uni that i wished(maybe SJTU)
benefits:
1.i'll have certs from 2 diff uni from diff countries (msia & china) which is really a plus point for my future career
2.i have the chance to work in either govt or private sector
3.my masters will be FOC

my 2nd uncle and aunt called me when they knew the result's out (they're both uni lecturers with much experience) so they gave me some advice
they said :stay with the OFFER ur dad provides

I DONT KNOW!!!
i love what i study now,i really enjoyed through this 5 months and i really find myself gaining and learning soo much in sjtu
but i dont want my studies become a burden to my parents,i know they have to earn more to pay my slightly-expensive fees in sjtu

what should i do?

assignments jammed in sjtu

2009-06-12T20:36:00.011+08:00

i sat infront of the computer for 5+ hours everyday,to do research and assignments
till a serious stage that i even have to wear SHADES in the house,cos i cant stand the strong UV on the computer,lol
i think my eyesight will increase with 100 by yr end
SS-ed while i'm doing my assignment,too bored =.=

the beautiful spanish gurl *178cm in our centre

she stayed for 3 weeks to learn chinese

her name is Claudia,she's only FIFTEEN,unbelievable 0.o she looks way too matured compared to us

she's very cute and she has a sweet smile,extremely lovely!

hearts her!!

the whites surrounding the only black, Ms Anna =)

SJTU 1 day trip

2009-06-07T13:39:00.006+08:00

it was totally a nice hangouts with my coursemates

we stayed overnight in their hostel,had STEAMBOUT~

we managed to "steal" secrets from each n everyone..the night was GREAT!

our first class trip is to the Islamic Arts Musuem Malaysia,in KL and Tian Hou Temple
the design of the IAMM building was beautiful,the artifacts were preciously nice. it's really beneficial to have went there! ahh~we bought their T-shirt,and the funny thing was,all of us bought children size,hahaha,to save money

i saw a pair of korean couples in the TianHou Temple,but i got no guts to talk to them,cos a PRO was bringing them around,i got no chance to show off my Hangul..sobs..

tian hou temple

the Arabian tourists took photo with us at the entrance

then,we became the "landmark" ,for tourists to take photo with,haha

before we start to visit IAMM,at the hall

our group 2 photo,around the staricase

IAMM had a conference that day,this was the design

and i'm soo in love with it!!!

black and white is really a great match!

ended with a big group photo at the entrance

exciting

tiring

love is around

conflicts happened
i'm dead fish

crazy gathering

2009-05-25T16:31:00.003+08:00

actually planned to eat lunch and end our celebrations cos everyone has school & jobs to turn out
but,the unstoppable gathering went on & on
the route of the day:
kaima korean BBQ -> WongKok -> NZX Full House -> subang's restaurant
we went 4 places in a day,wow,that was crazy,haha

*it was meant to be fun and nice.but,aww~my fault....
*and I AM GROUNDED =S
*i'm regretting from the first moment i step in...
*will update photos soon,if i have time =)

SJTU "say cheese" week

2009-05-14T22:03:00.005+08:00

almost everyday we're taking photos,cos too many functions going on,haha
WEDNESDAY is our Environmental Day
about 70% of us wore GREEN shirt, and it's really beautiful~i love the colour tone on each of us!!

this is part of my local gang frens

silin snatched us from our back
it looks nice isnt it?

me&sy with one of our besties--LINGHUI

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
we have presentations on tuesday and thursday

so everyone was "forced" to wear formal shirt on those days

my presentation was on tuesday,our topic was abt CHOCOLATE

anyway,my presentation sux

this is my english teacher--MS YOGES

she's cool~! i love her!!

she has left us today, cause she has more jobs to handle in her Uni,therefore she doesnt have much time for us..we will be taught by another teacher on the next semester

aww~i'll miss her lessons =(

me and kok yuen

me and my presentation partner--WENKI

tada~another besties in SJTU

she's MEIHUI,hehe

she looks so much pretty on make ups

*miao~* teeheee

lastly,me and shuying

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

today,thursday was shuying's presentation,she and linghui talked about BEAUTY

and they really done a great job!!! claps for them

as usual, time to SS

i dont know what pose is this,like a couple,haha

and shuying definately looks ENJOYED

me and my Sabahan friend,her name is Adeline

she's also one of the member in our english sketch

subway rox!

2009-05-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

i just realized that...
I"M IN LOVE WITH SUBWAYS
owh,i hope i'm that rich,to eat subway as my breakfast everyday
and some big news i found about subways
they have a new waiter!!!!!!!!!
some people might think, so what?
hahaha...for some reason,i really find it as a shocking news
you cant imagine what kind of reaction i'm showing when i saw him
he looks exactly like mrnn with the caps

california

2009-04-25T22:48:00.004+08:00

been going to mid valley almost everyday for fitness

it's kinda enjoying,get to use all funny and complicated machines,and taking shower there is woah~nice~

yet,the syok-est thing is, the environment of MV in the morning was great!!

no buzy workers or numerous pedestrians passing by,we only saw kindergartens' children walked pass(i have no idea why they have to take a walk in MV every morning?) by the way,i felt happy looking at them,they were sooo cute!!they even have BIG stickers on each of their backs,on it was the details and contact number i guess,just incase they went missing

owh,tell u guys something

DUNKIN DONNUTS have nicee breakfast set!!!!

was really delicious and it's kinda worthy,so if you got the chance to step in MV early in the morning,just have a try

this is me n sy SS again on the mirrors,haha,the waiters sure find us very odd..dont care =P

forgive

2009-04-21T22:00:00.005+08:00

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
do you understand that now?
you should be thankful for a person who's willing to love you
please dont blame anyone for loving you, they werent wrong for love
they just couldnt help, couldnt help falling in love with someone that doesnt deserve a peny

if there's a way for you to choose, "i wish i never love anyone"

再见，大柏

2009-04-20T16:13:00.004+08:00

上个星期五，是我在交大第一学期上半段的最后一天，也是大柏的欢送会。。
大柏看见我们出现在他的宿舍里，真的吓坏了，哈哈，好好玩哦～
我真的觉得咱们班上卧虎藏龙哦，大家都可以在一个星期内，把节目策划好，表演好。我们厉害吧？可以在那么短时间，而且是考试时期耶，准备卡片，制作video clip，准备食物，策划如何骗老师long gai。。。
当晚大柏真的掉下了难得的男儿泪哦！！哇哈哈，我们成功了！！！
可是我自己也哭得很凄惨，好久没酱痛哭了

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今天到UM面试，还好思霖和依菱也有去，不然一个人孤零零，很可怜的。婉婷也来陪我们哦！还认识了一个男生，哇塞，他整个feel够像孝一的，而且他样子很像eu eu耶！
我们仨大概经历过了最恐怖的普通话测试吧，竟然在每个人紧张兮兮的时候在那边谈天说笑，langsung takda rasanya。。。
好笑的是，我们3个说好了要用“标准普通话”和他们对话，根本就是去踩场的，哈哈
结果interview我的，问了我很可爱的问题，他说
“你觉得你的华语还算标准吗？”
“哈哈，还可以呀！” （他们说我应该讲“切，我是二级乙等水平的呢，开玩笑”）
然后他又问我是受谁影响的喔，我不可能说“我受大柏影响咯，他训练我们2个月了”
结果我又随便掰了几句。。。
整个interview过程很轻松呢！跟他们一直笑一直笑。总之我认为我表现得挺好的，至少从他们问我那个问题看得出他们也觉得我很“标普”咯，呵呵
很搞笑咧，回头一定要跟大柏讲！

A Virtual Malaysian Tour! - DAVID ARCHULETA

2009-03-30T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yep, he’s making Kuala Lumpur one of the stops for his Asian promo tour, and is confirmed to hit our shores from April 8 to 12 for a series of promotional activities, including a live performance.
the “David Archuleta Live in KL” showcase will take place at the Sunway Lagoon Amphitheatre on April 11 starting at 3pm
To get the ticket,you can obtain with every purchase of Archuleta’s album from April 2 onwards at the following retail outlets: Rock Corner, Artist Gallery and Victoria Music Centre (while stocks last). DiGi users will get a 20% discount on the purchase of the album at the above outlets. Also, with every purchase of the album, fans will receive a limited edition 16-page lyrics booklet for free.

hehe,let us open our arms widely and welcome archie~!
hohoho

end of march

2009-03-29T14:05:00.002+08:00

since i start my uni life,i'm getting bz n busier,without knowing that time flies,like nobody's business
now only realized i didnt update my blog for almost 1 month
shakesphere is absolutely right,life's a brief candle,a walking shadow
if you could restart your life,what will u do?

i had migraine recently,my mom say maybe i over-used my brain,
i think it's maybe i used to knock my head very hard when i hate myself,my brain wanna protest it seems,haha

exam is coming in 2 weeks time..aft dat,our teacher,Mr Bai will be going back to china,and a new teacher will be coming,her name is Lina..a female teacher,hehehe

yesterday was Earth Hour day,did anyone of u support this activity?
me & my friends went to celebrate my buddy's birthday,too bad the steambout restaurant didnt turn off the lights,else we can have candle light dinner,haha

i feel like throwing this blog,i dont think i got time for updates,haha

i saw YS

2009-03-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

for this whole month,we've got extra class,almost everyday..make us study till 4pm everyday
today is friday,and was the first friday that we have to stay till 4pm,hell tiring >.< but but!!something exciting happened
when we came out from the lift,almost reaching the building's entrace,i saw HIM,chatting on the phone he's wearing a BLUE tee(he loves polo tee),with a 3/4 shorts,looks adorablee
this is the first time i saw him after 8 years,in person!wow,he reli changed alot,but the shyty style is exactly like him as i know from his blog,kakaka
somehow he couldnt recognise me *phew* luckily he didnt,else i'll felt super embarrassing

KAI MA!!

2009-03-12T15:25:00.006+08:00

guess wat,just now me & shuying went to Kaima's
she ask us to be her god-daughter!!!!
wow,GOD DAUGHTER~
she's reli our KAIMA now,teehehe
we even got a big HUG from her!!!
oh goosh,LOVE her damn lots!!!still felt excited now!!!
this was the only thing that makes me happy for the week =)

congratz to eu,i heard u did very well,and ht who also got an unexpected superb result
u know wat?the saddest time is not when u cry,
is that you've tried ur best to control,but something watery just flow down ur cheek watever ignore me

ps:thanks to my deariess who sms/called me,they werent like some 8po who 8 my result but accompanied me tru my toughest time C= *hugss* sorry dat i didnt reply to some of u,i was too annoyed..mpm sux niways thanks to all
take care everyone,looks like it's "sicky season",dont fall sick yea!

A Thousand Miles

2009-03-01T14:25:00.004+08:00

hey everyone,thanks for concern,i'm doing fine,just kinda busy recently

well,have been study for 2 weeks,everything's alright,i met alot of nice friends & great lecturers..kinda get into my uni life already,but there's still many things for me to learn n catch up with,as u know,all my classmates,they were reli PRO~

i went MV last fri,to watch changeling,thanks so much to my darling SHUYING who accompanied me,and "forced" to watch twice for the same movie(i hope u wont feel bored)

i would like to share a clip,named "A Thousand Miles",not Vannessa version,it's David's version..**we all walked a thousand miles to reach for our dream,through this journey,we fell for a thousand times,BUT,dont give up! stand up everytime u fall!the new road(hope) is right infront of u!!**

isnt David a talented boi?he could play the piano beautifully,and sing along with it!!not only that,he can play guitar as well!!ppl like us shud reli learn from him,even he's only 18.did u notice something?his watch is at his right arm,same as me,hehe =)

ciaoz my all~have a great week ahead..march will be a busy month for me =P

第一天!!!!

2009-02-16T19:38:00.006+08:00

上了第一天的课，我觉得好累哦!!!! 精神上的累
那儿并没有想象中的简单，可以悠闲过日子
一起上课的同学各个都大有来头，说得一口流利标准的普通话，文学底子深厚，要不就是独中毕业生
压力相当大，不是可以混混日子的地方

现在为我们上课的柏老师，真是实力派的博士
我很享受上他的课，他可以用整堂课解释一小段课文，这让我想起我的"恩师"，人称YBB
听柏老师说话真的很舒服，他的普通话，那真是"没的顶"!

虽说，接下来的日子会更辛苦，但我们(ying&me)一定会相辅相成，一起撑下去的!!
要是为了一点点的痛苦就放弃，还凭什么去上海跟别人竞争啊?要怎么出人头地啊?
加油!!加油!!
不止是我，大家都要加油哦!!!

莹，我要给你拍拍手 *clap clap*
你好棒，为了上课，你每天都要走1KM的路来回，你真的很"强"哦!!!!

ps:this sat who wanna cheong k aft red cliff?
places to choose : pavillion red box plus/ times square neway
er,any inquiries abt time/price,pls find it out ursf,i wont hv much time calling those karaoke
confirm ad tell zk,he'll be incharge...gua..(zk u dun mind hor?)

dont stress,no stress

2009-02-11T18:49:00.007+08:00

这个星期六，就是。。
情人节啦!!!
这次不想再一个人发傻了，我有一个超级鬼马的庆祝idea，wahahaha...
没有啦。。幻想而已，幻想而已，kekeke

**喜欢一个人就要坚持下去，不要因为其他人做了一些让自己感动的事就轻易动摇**
这句话送给你们当情人节礼物吧!
祝身边的lenglui & lengzai "情人节快乐!" ohh

星期日呢，就是。。
我大学的迎新会咯~
星期一就正式开课了~
我很很很很兴奋咧!!!
现在开始要稳重点，不能像以前那么38了
说话要斯文，开心就微笑，
要保持形象，不能再让人说我一把年级还那么幼稚

上个星期我回家乡时，我阿公帮我在HLB开了4位数的户口,ngiek ngiek
说是作为我上大学的鼓励^^
他老人家真的很可爱!!
我们到银行开户口时，他，就拉着我的手，向那个负责人炫耀，说我就是他的那个孙女(应该是向他提了我很多次吧)，又说我进大学了，所以开个户口给我，当奖励。然后又讲以后每个孙读大学，都要给予奖励，最喜欢就是儿孙会读书，哈哈。。跟那个人讲到几投缘咯
看见我阿公疼我，这么以我为荣，真的感到很开心，嘻嘻
阿公，我会好好读书的!以后赚多多钱孝敬你们,ok?
突然很心忧他的身体咧 :(

happie

2009-02-08T00:30:00.007+08:00

i'm glad that u guys din dumb me alone to sing k
thx mama,eu & yming!!
and also papa who joined us ltr,and accompanied me back

超开心的lo
连续2天被人gap,
你说我是不是很爽lerrr,wahaha...
那天是个蛮高的
今天那个是鼻子超高，超美的咯
(两个都是符合我"心水"的咧~)
可是很没有真实感lo...因为...
可能他们没有见过真正的lenglui gua..

our next outing will be on the 21st of feb..to PAVILLION!!!yeah yeah yeah!!
me,papa,mama,eu n ym confirm ad la..leiheng,wait for u to confirm nia,red cliff

ps: i wanna make mysf clear for smtg..abt my previous post,video clip for YunHo,i MADE it MYSELF ok~pls appreciate my EFFORT for doing it 4 days

happy birthday u know!!

2009-02-06T03:41:00.011+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
JUNG YUNHO!!!
today is Mr. Jung's birthday!!
he's now 23yrs old lo..23 my lucky number,keke
let's pray for yunho,hope that he have a great time thr,god bless u,lurve u^__^
enjoy this clip =)

CNY party&拜年

2009-02-02T23:56:00.004+08:00

activity:
"family" outing + 拜年

date:
31st jan '09 初六

participants:
sy,teng,lx,feng,papa,zk,mk,ym,eu,cynthia,kf,au

venue:
papa@ jln gasing - Pn Quek@ tmn emas - Pn Wee@ puchong - pn yaprio@ serdang - zk@ serdang - kampung subang cheong foong restaurant

motif:
1. grab ANG POWSS from teacher
2. eat 团圆饭,cos it's our 1st dinner since CNY
3. to celebrate LEIHENG's birthday lo~
4. to take more SS pics,lolx

here goes the story:
papa&mama came pick me up for dimsum dat morning,we met cynthia&kf at the same dimsum restaurant

1st stop is at papa's hse,we even got angpow from Papa,thx wey~
2nd stop is Pn Quek's hse,we "accidentally" met those currently U6As with 小花& jasmine flower
aft dat,we headed to Pn Wee's hse,OMG!!the way to her hse was like treasure hunt..hunting for golden hse reli..luckily we have pro-driver--ZK mama,so we didnt lost our way to elsewhr
then the 4th station is Pn YapRio hse,at serdang...this time,we met the upper6-es AGAIN~haha..she baked a potato cheesie thing for us,delicious man!!!
last stop is at ZK mama's hse,not far from YR's hse..he showed us his room oh,hehe

k..skip the blah..
so so..we continued our outing to kpg subang
our actual plan is to eat n sing at Cheong Foong,but!!duno whose fault is it,put us in a room WITHOUT karaoke,so ended up eating only,damn GERAMM dat day,ish ish!!

the outing called off at 10.30pm cos most of them cnt go back late
the rest of us(sy,ht,ym&me) had our final yamcha session at ss2 murni!!
it was nice!!reli..the environment & the mood & the ppl,it's the best yamcha session with u guys!

picturesss...

pn wee's eldest son - 马智轩
his name sounds like korean rite?he's so so cute,n he has a pair of big eyes like pn wee

leiheng brought a new phone,same model as sy
so,both of them become the model of the phone,haha

sy & me have the same nail polish for our toe
and same for our shoes
i'm recently falling in love with this colour

the 4 of us

camwhore pic
i love it^^

the guys,posing their long legs out

to end my post abt CNY~
here comes,photo with my jimuis

with teng

with shuying

with bd gal! leiheng

**dear,sorry for not purposely posting a bd post for u on ur bd

but u can feel my sincerity rite?reli,sincere from my heart wishes u happy birthday,my dear!!

hope dat u'll soon find ur Mr Right in NTU

hope u're ever young n always cute^^

hope u can earn lots lots money in future $.$ be a succesful woman

and of cos hope dat our friendship never dies,keke

muak muakkk**

CNY '09

2009-01-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

hit's another sien CNY,as usual + more tiredness
i've got no same-age cousins to chat n play with at my paternal grand-parents hse
so i'm looking forward goin back to my maternal grandma's hse
cos i can meet my dear dear cousins,who only come back once in a year

it was fun there!!
playing cards with the whole damn super cards-pro gang
enjoying movie for 3 days, the dvd player is like "non-stop cinema"
had lotsa delicious-est foods,cos all my aunts are great cook!!

hv a small computer confrence among cousins,this was funny,i was actually planning to exchange songs with my cousin bro,so he turn on his comp,then i took out my lappie..then sudd was like everyone taking their lappie n usb n stuffs surrounding dat small corner,n we had a comp confrence thr,hahaha

lastly,huiying arr..of cos i will not tell anyone,our dirty secrets,hehe
promise will come cheong k with me k?

here goes my super photogenic lovely cousin-huiying
mwah mwah ^__^

dat's my little cuttie
her name is 紫心,puple heart it means
u see,how naughty,i want a smiley pix =) but she pulled her tongue out =P

i wanna take a photo of her,but then she crawled over to my camera,n pose lidat,haha..damn funny
she's reli my sweet heart man

can u figure out what are we doin with our toes?
yes,using our toes posing 石头，剪刀，布
stone is huisi ; siscors is me ; cloth is huiying

pinky huisi
janelle aka huiying
me =)

took this when we're abt to leave

i steal this from JANELLE's blog,keke
right side dat gal gal,is my "purple heart",love her so muach

心情故事

2009-01-18T14:27:00.002+08:00

是的，换了新的skin，还有加入了一些新歌
嘻嘻，不错吧?
想不到要怎么庆祝，只好post这个故事给你们看咯。。。
我可是抱着会被post owner说盗版权，而坎死的危险给你们看得哦
真的很想知道你们看了的反应是什么，因为我本人感触很深，不知道你们会不会呢。。
好吧，enjoy =)
新年快乐!!

2009-01-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

心情写－男孩的故事

男孩是个守夜者。

夜幕垂帘，男孩总是坐在高处，悠远而不为人知的角落，静静地望着星空。

午夜时分，万籁俱寂 ( 一切都很宁静 )，偶尔夹着啾啾的夜鸣声，思路变得很平静，清晰。男孩想，是否女孩，正在世界的另一端，默默地等待着彼此的相遇；想着，在自己心中的她，是否同样地也在望着夜景；想着，是否此刻，也这般地想着他……

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时间荏苒 ( 渐渐过去 )，一天又一天平凡地过去。

男孩在一次的邂逅 ( 偶然遇见 ) 中，爱上了女孩，女孩也知道他一直都在注意她。

久了，女孩也渐渐习惯了身边有他的身影，喜欢从他身上所得到的抽象感觉。

好几次女孩假装眼睛看着别处，实余角全都是他的背影，他的一举一动，女孩的眼光不曾遗落过；他的一笑一怒，无不令她心动荡漾，与此享受每一段有他的时刻。

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女孩内心隐隐盼望能接触他，但往往因男孩无动于衷而发愁。

男孩似乎只想扮演单恋的角色。

因为他觉得，还是不要联系的好，也没有向她澄清的必要。男孩喜欢神秘地在一边，欣赏她的存在。.

茫然无奈的她，只好股起勇气走到他最爱去的角落，腼腆 ( 害羞 ) 地说：

‘请你挪出少许的空间，让我可以有机会认识你，有机会向你示爱。无论如何，我需要你的理解’。

男孩霍地里愣 ( 呆 )住了。

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男孩从此和女孩谱出了爱情。

下课，女孩总是捧着准备好了的便当，也不忘买男孩最爱吃的油炸圈，站在相隔不远的梧桐树下，等待那熟悉的倩影出现，一同用餐；放学，俩人一起走路回家。日落曦光四照，俩人手牵着手，在浦满银杏树叶的小石子路上走着。

夕阳余晖下，俩人的影子拉得长长，亲密得犹如一体，景色美得像梦境一般地瑰丽。那浪漫温存的感觉，遍布全身，醺醺如醉。

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有一次在回家途中，天空下着大雨，俩人往常共撑一把伞。男孩一心护着女孩，自己全身湿漉漉的，也不让女孩被雨水沾到。

‘哎哟！’ 女孩见状，失惊地叫道：‘你干什么！’

‘雨伞太小啦，你被雨淋到生病怎么办？’

‘不用等到我着凉，我的心就先被你浇凉啦！’ 女孩伸出手 ‘伞让我来拿，快点！’ 心酸地说。

‘不，不给。’男孩笑着说。

‘哦？’真的吗？真～的不给吗？’ 尾音拉得长长，眼波流动，咬着下唇，露出调皮的眼色。

女孩双手突然在男孩身上乱抓，呵他的痒，男孩一时出其不意，撑着伞的手顿时松开。女孩一把将雨伞接了过来，一脸胜利的模样。

‘你……’

男孩还未说完，女孩伸手嘟住他的嘴，两颗晶莹的眼珠凝滞 ( 不动 )地看着男孩，柔声说：

‘要淋，咱一起淋，以后的艰苦，我都想跟你共度。’ 说完，把伞关了起来，藏在背后，示意绝不返还。

男孩听了大为感动，含情脉脉地看着她，一时说不出话来。雨淅沥淅沥地下着，雨声中蕴含着无限的柔情密意。俩人良久不语。

这时，女孩手勾着男孩的手臂，将身体拉得更近，头依偎着男孩的肩膀，开腔道：

‘你爱我有多少？’

‘嗯……’ 男孩俯首思索 ( 低头想 )。

‘不许骗哦。’

‘你瞧瞧。’男孩指着天，说道：’我对你的爱就好像天上的雨点那么多，不同的是，雨会下完，我的爱却是永恒不息的，这一切都不会变，不管怎样。’

女孩听他真情流露，娇羞无限，低着头，含含糊糊地说：

‘这都是你的真心话吗？是不是为了讨我欢心而故意说给我听的？’

男孩摇了摇头，说道：

‘我一直以来都是一个人，但自从认识了你后，我才知道到过去是多么的空虚。以前我都一个人面对事情，如今每一天所发生的事情我都想跟你说’

男孩顿了一下，继续说：

‘我爱你，我甘冒着雨给你送伞，在你生病的时候熬夜地照顾你反让我觉得很甜，很满足。真的。那种感觉很难形容，但很真，虽然是很累，总觉得为你付出是天大的乐事。还有晚上害怕你睡不着，为了不要错过你的sms而失眠，总之，很～爱你就对啦！’

女孩听了，害羞得不得了，两颊绯红，倍增娇艳，可爱得让人心醉。男孩情不自禁，低下头，慢慢地闭上眼睛，深情地吻了女孩的嘴，良久良久都不离去。

雨水倾泻，泛起一阵阵涟漪，俩人任凭雨点飘飘洒洒地打在身上。过了好久，俩人才慢慢地把眼睛张开，如梦初醒，如醉如痴。

女孩回过神来，问道：

‘要是一天我死了，你……会怎么办？’

男孩侧头过来，说道：

‘怎么啦？’

‘就想知道啊……，不想说也没关系。’

男孩沉吟半晌，说：

‘你死了，我绝不会独活。是不能，也是不要。’

庄严认真的样子，带着铁定的语气说道。

忽然间，女孩深深地打了个冷颤，身子不住晃动起来，双颊全无血色。男孩这一惊可非同小可，连忙扶了女孩一把，关怀地问道：

‘你还好吧？’摸了摸女孩的额头。

女孩不答话，只顾着问：

‘你为什么要寻死？！为什么要寻死？！我值得你那么做吗？’声音颤抖得很。

男孩听了，有些不开心。

‘你的反应怎么那么大啊？’右手牵着女孩，继续说：

‘别说了，我们赶紧回家吧，你感冒了。’

女孩像是中了邪一样，茫然地随着男孩，一路跑，眼前的东西，什么都不知道。

眼眶的泪水，掺合了雨水，在脸上划过一道长长的水痕……
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恋爱总是在丰满成熟的时候，就这样无情地消失。

一天，男孩收到了医院的电话，原来女孩患上了癌症，如今已是末期。男孩得讯，霎时间，犹如身受雷轰，整个心灵崩溃下来，他简直不敢相信自己的耳朵。

男孩开伐急奔，跑去医院，脑袋只有躺在病床上的女孩。他半点也不能松懈，脸上的汗珠一滴一滴地落，划过一道一道晶萤的水痕。尽管脚是多么的累，尽管自己是多么的精疲力尽，他没有休息的余地。因为女孩每一分每一秒，都可能离他而去。

男孩终于到了医院。查询病房门号，二话不说，跑到病卧，把门推开。

只见女孩躺在病床上，脸毫无血色，显然已经在垂死的边缘。但女孩仍坚强地在鬼门关口挣扎，为的是要见男孩最后一面。

男孩走到床边，握着女孩的手，深情地看着她。瞧见女孩憔悴无色的脸胧，男孩痛心疾首，情绪澎湃，看着心爱的人即将死去而无法挽回结局，男孩首次体会到自己是多么的无助，无能，恨不得代受其苦，再也忍耐不住，泪水夺眶而出。

女孩轻轻抚摸着男孩的脸，拭去他脸上的泪，微笑地言：

‘别哭啦……难道我的伤心…….就不及你厉害吗……’

‘为什么你没告诉我？’

‘因为我想快乐地……和你度过这三个月……’

‘好。’男孩收起了眼泪，心里暗暗打定了注意，脸上闪出一丝的安祥。

女孩一双明眸凝滞地望着男孩，突然明白了男孩的意思。俩人心灵相通，男孩也知道女孩猜中了他的心思。

‘不行……’ 女孩有气无力地说：’你不能死……’

‘你明知我是不会答应你的。’

女孩深知男孩的性格，明白她死了以后，男孩决计不肯独生，也知道再劝也没用，心里不禁悲哀地叹息。

‘那……你答应我一件事……’仪器显示女孩的脉搏越来越弱。

‘好，好，除了那件事以外，什么我都答应你！’男孩激动地说。

‘我死后……我的灵魂会继续在你心中……活着三年……所以这三年内……你不能死……三年后……你想干什么……也由得你了……’

男孩黯然神伤地说：‘你以为三年后，我的心会被时间冲淡而不再为你殉情（为情自杀〕吗？’
话虽然那么说，但眼见女孩命在须臾（要死了），男孩不忍心拂（拒绝〕她的心意，说道：

‘好，我答应你。三年后，我们再相见。’

女孩听了，给了男孩她一生最灿烂的笑容，不再说话，安祥地闭起眼睛。男孩握着她的手，陪着她，一直到她呼出了人生最后一口气。

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日子无声无息地流逝。离开女孩得忌日，也有了一段距离。男孩对女孩的思念却丝毫未减。

学校里的女生，总觉得男孩有个深藏不露的秘密。身上所散发的神秘感，令她们心摇神驰，加上男孩一张俏俊的脸孔，容光俊秀，更是迷倒了她们。

男孩却没有另交新欢的意思。

男孩对女孩的感情极深，那种感情是无法转移到别人身上。

‘别为了一棵树，而放弃整座森林。’朋友劝导他说。

男孩没有回口。男孩不是个多话的人。

‘我想一个人静一下。’也不等朋友回答，自己便独自走到以往下课时和女孩约会的地方，梧桐树下。

男孩静静地伫立在那。

关起眼睛，拼命地幻想着，女孩，其实就在自己身旁。

清风徐来，落叶随风飘逸，树叶相互摆动，奏出了动人的音符。

听见风声，男孩触景生情，唤醒了尘封在在心底，和女孩在梧桐树下所种下的种种美丽的回忆。男孩慢慢睁开眼睛，见到了自己和女孩的身影……

（诶？！这是什么？）

（你最爱吃的油炸圈啊。在你家附近的摊子买的。昨天你说你喜欢吃，我就给你买下来了。你说我乖不乖？）

（可是……我不吃豆沙的……）

（是吗……你都没有跟我讲！真是的……）

（谁说没有！噢……原来你都没有把我的话听进去的……）

（你有讲咩！！好啦……对不起咯……嘻嘻……喂喂！！不要酱啦！！看着我啦！！）

（不--------要。）

（呜呜呼……不要酱啦……喏，你看，今天这道菜是你最爱吃的哦！也是我亲手做的……不要生气嘛……最多待会儿我唱歌给你听……）

想到这里，眼眶含泪欲滴，心田里一阵温馨，脸上出现了微微的笑容。

（森林再多再茂密，也填满不了没有你的的空虚。）心里面说。
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天黑了。

夜，依旧宁静，夜，没有因为男孩的情绪而黯然神伤，一切，都没有改变。

男孩是个守夜者。

夜幕垂帘，男孩总是坐在高处，悠远而不为人知的角落，静静地望着星空。

午夜时分，万籁俱寂，偶尔夹着啾啾的夜鸣声，思路变得很平静，清晰。男孩想，是否女孩，正在世界的另一端，默默地等待着彼此的相遇；想着，在自己心中的她，是否同样地也在望着夜景；想着，是否此刻，也这般地想着他……

男孩透过迷蒙的泪水，望着天上的星星。看着它们，呼唤着女孩的名字。

‘你在天国过得好吗？’

这时，银黑色的星河里，有颗光华耀眼的星星殒落了，去追赶三年前所遗落的流星，并在人间，留下了真挚的爱。

i went sku today

2009-01-15T12:41:00.008+08:00

xin reli grew up alot =)

yes,i understand wat u mean
actually i tot my feelings towards nn is jz like urs towards wl,but..yea,maybe,like u said,i dun hv any better target..wat he done is,he jz gave me some reactions n make me feel i'm not hopeless n so on..i continue liking him,with more hope?watever

if i like him but i pretend i'm not; or hiding this feeling or tried to get him off my mind,this is reli not a good idea,AT ALL!!
i leant how to listen to my heart n follow my feelings =)
if i wanted to talk to him,i'll jz chat wif him like everyone else..if i'm missing him,i'll let mysf to think abt him,dun wanna act macam ntg this time
well,i'm sure i can control mysf n slowly come out from this "odd" feeling

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today went back sku to get our MUET result
i saw YY!!!he cut his hair,and he still looks so so so adorable
and i saw my SGMN,she cut her hair too,still so cute ^^
i saw alots lotsa ppl n frens...i miss them =(
well,not reli wanted to talk abt results today,not in a RIGHT mood now
atmosphere around is not good,my frens n buddies kinda low~aiks,local edu suxx la
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bye bye

浩浩行善

2009-01-11T00:48:00.007+08:00

on the new year
yunho went back to his hometown in Gwangju
he went to his high school,and give 6 millions won for 6 students' scholarship
*clap clap clap*
wat a great boi ^^ i'm lovin him

this is the pic whr students n teachers lining up to get his autograph

yunho^^ and his pengetua (cute old men)

他这么受人宠爱，受长辈疼爱，是因为他有一颗善良的心
他，深深爱着他的故乡，每次每次，题起光州，他的眼神就会发光
在舞台上，他是帅气的队长
在家里，他是疼爱妹妹的好哥哥，父母的宝贝儿
私底下，他就是迷糊得可爱，单纯得像孩子，爱心泛滥得让身边的人都感受到他的爱
在想为什么对他这么着迷呢?应该就是因为他，就是他

congratulations!!

2009-01-10T20:42:00.004+08:00

come come,hot news abt my dear dear SGMN
with strong support from everyone and her great ability,she's voted as the VICE PRESIDENT of rumah Hijau year 2009
CONGRATULATIONS!!my SGMN
she rox rite?
with her leading our rumah,will sure do well this year!!and beat others down,YEAH!!
aww~i miss sku,alot!!

HIJAU ROXXXX!! Hijau is the BEST!!

i miss the school,very very much

2009-01-09T18:59:00.005+08:00

owh..i've not been updating my bloggie ar??
so sowie my muachis n my readers

1st-ly,i went SWENSENS few days ago to celebrate for my bro who scored some A's in PMR (blek,he still cnt beat me,yeah!)
i miss the ICE CREAM,let's go eat again!!!awwww~~i'm desperate for ice cream now
aikss..i reli have to avoid to go any restaurant in ss2,everytime will sure met somebody..
guess who i met..KaiJin and Tee I-Wei,meet them as in they're holding hands oh~ 0.O i wonder,when did they get along??i never knew they coupled,haha

ok,back to my own thing
i met up my friends days ago,paiseh-ing not contacting them for a long time,so kena "forced" to meet lar
well,i went shopping with my mom,for new clothes..i'm using the money like nobody's business.bought lot shirts n pants n jeans...weehehe,i've got new clothing for a new year!yeah!!
i'm reli missing sku for some particular reasons,haha,i still cnt get ** off my mind i guess
wat else,my bro?my brother!!!ngiek ngiek..he's studying in 4S5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!owh,why am i so happy?? cos that's the class i love most!!4S5 & 5S5 rox!!!
i'll be going back to sku on the Valentines Day,anyone interested to join???hehe

ji muis & buddies,hope u guys enjoyed the job u're doing now^^ wey,go bai nian lorr,k bo??
muachi,my muachis!! hope we can meet soon
i miss ya'all
lastly an early wish,happy chinese new year,i'm reli looking forward to it

tired

2009-01-02T01:27:00.003+08:00

jiabao n dandan
thank alot just now
felt so relieved n relaxed sitting in ur car
and i had laughs spending time with u all

i'm so so tired
i'm begging for a nice sleep

i saw him...after 8years

2008-12-28T14:11:00.007+08:00

it's not too good to met people who u adore before
i met him,the HIM who i really adore

it's way back to standard5..
he sat beside me
he's a smart guy who always got 1st placing in our class,and he got "best student award" in our school
he's a kind boy who will teach me my weak subjects, but tease me at the same time =S
he's good at quarrelling *smile* loves to argue with me, about Chinese (both of us are the Chinese pro in our class,dat time)
he's shy,to other people..but to me,he's naughty
he has a fair skin,tall body,shy-ish smile on his face
that's the HE that i adore alot

after std5,he transfer to another school
it's been 8 years i didnt heard about him or saw him
accidentally saw him,i hope i wasnt wrong
the same fair skin,height,good looking face
but,he doesnt have shy-ish smile anymore
he has ear holes,he wear earrings
he smokes
he drinks
he went clubbing
he is flirtatious

i wish i could bring him back

why am i feeling...sad