can we stop?

emo-ing...actually recovered,but i saw some one's blog,makes me felt so low again

i hate to quarrel with friends
hate to have cold war
hate to act like nothing happens,but actually you're so BU SHUANG
hate to NOT speak out the feelings
hate that you like to play this kind of "care-not care" game

can we stop this?
I'm also very tired of this...
if we really cannot be together
then just let it be
you cant force anyone to be what you want them to be

Emo - Cold - Moody - Okies

this week wasnt a good week to me...
i was quite emo and low..



firstly,i was quite bothered about the "love" thing happened recently
then yesterday,my mortal's hp kena stolen/snatched
makes me worried a bit,and therefore emo a bit

then today...something happened to our un-breakable relationship
we sort of have Cold Wars
i was really not in the HIGH mood early morning
not feel like talking,but wasn't unhappy or what
just lazy to talk
after recess,i was getting low and emo...
maybe it's because of lx & ht,I'm not so sure about it
thought that they were quite happy,enjoying themselves while I'm not really in a good mood
and maybe some other reasons,that i haven't discover

actually,we are supposed to go for 6th form installation after school
but me and sy really got no mood to go for that installation
then when cynthia asked who wants to go Mid Valley?
me & sy was like "i want!!"
so,we went together,leaving lx & ht with question marks around their head
we couldn't even bothered to tell them that we are going to MV
just simply threw some words,sort of mention MV,and we left

well,along the way to mv,felt a bit OK,cos we joke about kf...koala bear,haha
we(me,sy,cyn & kf) went to KIM GARY for lunch
after that lunch,really felt a lot better...A LOT...and wasn't emo-ing anymore

when me & sy are on our way back
we went into Teddy Tales
thought to shop a while,since we have much time left
haha,but we found badges!!cute badges,and cheap..
so we bought 13 badges in total
and 1 of it is for cy
wohoho...happily going home~~
not emo anymore,not low anymore...

just now lx called me,we chat for quite a long time
they were quite worried that why we act like this today,too weird
actually me too,don't know why,and what is happening,just emo...
but really thanks for you guy's concern...
and so sorry for being so self centered..

eu,thanks for trusting me and sharing your problems with me,although i didn't help
you don't have to change the way you talk or way you care about us
you just be yourself
I'm really happy and glad to have you as my friend
hope that we will last as best friends forever,ok?
lastly...I'm studying,really study,so don't worry^^

HAPPY BURFDAY JIA BAO

H.A.P.P.Y B.U.R.F.D.A.Y!!
. JIA . BAO . BAO .



to my dearest JIA BAO!!!

Happy 19th Birthday!!!



that day u called me up and chat with me
i was sorry i didn't recognised your voice
therefore you must call me more often,so that i can recognise it next time,haha



since it's your birthday,i'll talk something good about u then...
you're the best thing i had in my form4& form5 life!!
never get annoyed of me asking you tough add maths questions(i think that's very easy for you)
always drive me out to watch movie,yum-cha,gathering,shopping...my best driver,haha
you always show people those childish and funny and playful and 38 side of you,
but actually you're a warm and sweet friend
always be there for me to share my problems
giving me best advice to solve those problems i met
a trustworthy friend that i can share my stories with
will cheer me up whenever i'm low
bringing happiness and joy to everyone around you,that's why i felt comfortable being with you!!^^

knowing you is my pleasure
having you as my best friend is my treasure
BFF!!
mwahs~

holiday's over!

one week holiday is finally over
trying to refresh what i did during this holiday?
nothing at all....
did not even study a single page of any of the subjects...and trials is around the corner >.<

today is schooling day
i missed the school,missed the peoples!!
finally can meet u guys!!

Saturday night went to 小叔 house for family gathering
and for his open house party,so called
the Fatty Steambout car came...nice thing!!
his semi-D was really a nice one!!
i like the design of his living room...

ah,this is a photo i took with my dear mommy^^
i kinda like the feel of this picture

I'm going to have my breakfast now...

wohoho...dear friends,see ya in school!!

mwahs~

錯覺

原來這一切只是錯覺
對你好,是因為你先對他好
送你禮物,只為了報答你對他的照顧
會把日常生活中所發生的事情,都告訴你,只是覺得你比較談得來
特地自制一個CD給你,純粹是想把他自己喜歡的歌介紹給你聽
把秘密告訴你,是因為他覺得你值得信任
約你去看戲,只是需要你的陪伴
把賬戶密碼告訴你,是要你幫忙,他相信你不會濫用他的帳戶
對你的關心,只是以朋友的角度來問候
說希望可以繼續保持聯絡,只把你當成訴苦的對象
和你談起前任女友的事,是要暗示你,他還是喜歡着她
其實一直以來,只是你自己一廂情願,他並沒有表示過什麼
這真的只是,錯覺而已


笨女人
是時候...
清醒了!!


失眠的夜裡
再度愛上李聖傑的歌
“他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过”

* * * * * * * *
i don't care lu...
i will ignore those weird feelings
I'm going on with my life,don't want anyone to make it a mess
this Sunday going out with Papa,Mama and Kaiye
to watch Batman,finally...hehe

ah,papa say they all got soccer match tomorrow,erm...should be today jor...
good luck,guys!! ^^

oh,i'm feeling sleepy now,it's almost 2am in morning lu...
buh bye,mwahz...

Love? Not

he told me he finally decide to msg his ex-gf,because of me
then they are going out now
i felt happy that he finally have guts to talk to her
really act like so happy
even call him to take pictures with her

aiks...what's wrong with me now??

Love Lorn

OMG...
what is it now??
i really fell in love??

those symptoms really makes me feel like I'm falling for him
I'm always looking forward for his message
if he replied my message,I'll be very very happy
will suddenly miss him for no reasons
when he told somebody that he treats me well is because i treat him well
i felt so disappointed and sad
when he talked about his ex-girlfriend,i was like,low...really low
but at the same time,hope that he could be with her again,encouraged him to go after her,
what am i doing...
i act so normal,like a friend,giving him advice in the message
but i felt so hurt...when i saw his message talking about his ex-gf
hate this feeling!!

anyone can tell me,
is this call love?
or maybe like?
or it's just my own feeling mislead me?

dear,why both of us faced the same problem??
how to solve it?
can u teach me?

Red Box!!Here I Am

Finally....i'm coming,my dear Red Box!!!

actually my gang ppl din wanna sing for this holiday,they say they dont have the mood
but yesterday,when me,sy and ht were in Mid Valley,shopping...
lx asked us to go redbox sing k!!!
actually is weeshen(3E camper) ask her out and he called us along too....
but we said that they are not sincere enough,want him to sms us personally
then later,when we are about to go back,suddenly yiap2 call me,haha,just to show his "sincerity"

ok,so we decided to go out today!!
it was so fun!!
it's like 400 years have not went to red box,i miss the MIC!!!
not only yiap and weeshen,2 more guys joined this outing,they are peiyong and zhongyaw
4 of them are good at singing,especially yiap,i think he has a nice voice!!
we are quite high there,even ht says she felt hot in that room,haha

we finish singing at about 3pm,then we loiter till the cinema,because they wanted to watch movie,but they couldnt find a suitable one...
so we walked a long way till another end to play bowling...
my first time to play bowling,very FISH~~
keep on sweeping "longkang" only...
peiyong very pro oh!!he have the highest score among all!!clap clap!!
ht also very geng,she even beat some of the guys there,haha!!
it's really fun be hang out with these guys,hope that we have chance to go out and sing k together in future...hehe^^


aiks...what to do now,very fish jor...
we ae too perasan,according to some people
sorry to those people concerned...
sorry dear...dont be sad,u still have me,i'll always be by your side
dont think too much,and dont care about the wateva curse thing...just take a good rest and everything will be okie!!
loves you!!

3E International Camp

phew...it's finally over...i felt a little released...haha

this year's 3E camp was successful enough,that each n every one of the participants were happy n having lots of fun during camp....
but i felt more stress and tension,and low...

let's just let those low-ness be forgotten...
i knew lots friends there,real nice nice people...
i was kinda "forced" to be the committee at first,cus tze junn's persuading skills very good larh
sy,lx,ht n my papa become committees later....family trip,hehe

lots of lower6 joined this time...and L6S were the dominant among those participants,clap clap!!
and,my mortal-chunyan joined this camp as participant also,hehe
me n ht were the facilitators for the T group & Food Category
i love the peoples in my group...all of them are nice and kind souls
get to know some cute and interesting people:
yong zheng--the add maths pro!!and all-field pro!!nice guy who neva gets angry when u bully him
jin yap--he sorta "cheat" at my station,playing Bogglers...very funny person but he likes to call me "lao hua",haha
ru yan--a cute gal,very smart n creative,and also very good in drawing!!u rocks!!
bryan--another smart guy,who's quietly contributing,happy birthday boi!!
kwan seng--mr low!very good leader,funny,good at break dancing!!low low low~
khaiyang--blue blue,i call him dat way...a good looking guy who likes blue so much,and his chinese name sounds like ocean too
crystal--sporting gal,loves to smile alot!!and always telling ppl dat yongzhen is hers,haha
amanda--another l6 gal,loves to sing,just like me!!she has a beautiful voice
joey--wuhu~another cassiopeia,cute n fun!!
denise--energetic gal,so nice to play boggler with her^^she gave me hearts for closing ceremony eh!!thx lar!!
zuo hao--my mortal's fren,who helped us to carry those tables n chairs,TQ!!
jensen--eeping's brother,he's so so fair...a nice guy n good leader,he got the best camper,congrats!!
weeshen--his chinese name same with my bro!he brought an air pump matteress to sleep,he even brought a pinkish pillow to camp,haha

ah...too many names.cant recall everything...
activities were FAB!!!except the team building,i hate that!
the food is great this year,especially yesterday's breakfast,darn nice!!woah~mashed potatoes~~

so siens...i miss u guys larh,waiting for thursday,wanna chat with sy...

Hurts!!

yesterday was a BAD DAY...

when we are on our way to tuition,my friend looks very down...
so i was like asking him
"why are u so down?"
then he din reply...dun wanna choi me...

later ask him the same thing again...
and i said with joking tone
"u want me to sing a song for u first,then only u wanna share with me ur problem ar??"
prepared to sing a song,then...
then he said
"dont entertain me larh!!"

wat the...i was just concerning,then he said this kinda thing...
damn hurt yesterday...felt so sad n sad n hurt...T.T

Just Du-It!!

falling for ice cream thses days,
MINT+CHOC ice cream
yummies...
like having one ice cream each day...


well,today we started our study group(Just Duit)
disccussed abt MA Bab1...but darn funny,esp when MK teach,i almost got stomach ache...
eikz >.<
i dunno whether i teach well, in my part,whether they understand...i hope they do,haha
tomorrow is BC2,hope wont laugh till burst tears again,haha...

i saw ur blog...
i dunno wat to say...
just hope that we mantain in the same condition
do you notice that we're getting closer with our papa n mama these days??
why izit so? i also dont know why...
well,hope that it's all settled,i'm really tired of all these,we'll just be the same like last time,ok??


aix...me getting fat jor...
cut the fat!!cut the ICE CREAM!!!!
no,i cant...i'm addicted...

ah,i saw my YY in canteen today ^^
he walks like ghost lar...too skinny...
my dear,can u eat more??

first post

everything has the first time
this is my first blog
my first post
my very own thing...

actually wanna start a blog very very long time ago,but too lazy
maybe saw my friend's blog,makes me a little motivated,haha
so,should i say thank you to u??

today is a moody day,after looking at somebody's blog...
i dont understand,why u changed??
it's not the person i know anymore,u've become so weird,i dont know how to talk with you anymore...
i'm not angry,but felt very much sad,and disappointed...

ended with a moody post,haha